What's Up

Still super bored for the summer and it’s officially too hot and I don’t like being hot AT ALL. I can’t wait for winter to be back. Sigh. On the other hand things are looking up for the next few weeks at least. Tonight and probably tomorrow I have a sort of photography job! I say sort of because as far as I know it doesn’t pay. I’m not sure if I mentioned last month that I went and volunteered at a community theater, but I mentioned to them while I was there that I do photography and they were really excited about that so that’s who I’m doing it for. It’s their new works festival and while I suppose that I could see a bunch of new shows from people in the Michigan (and a couple from surrounding states) area I’m going to be focusing on the pictures. (Duh) I suppose that last bit didn’t need to be said but I’ve been sitting in my house not talking to anyone except my mom when she gets home from work and my friends maybe once a week so my thinking and social skills are really out of whack. I think that the point I was trying to make was that I’m doing this photography thing and it doesn’t pay but I’m told that the pictures will be used for promotional purposes which is really awesome because even if I’m not getting paid I’m getting my work out there and maybe someone will see it who does want to pay me.
Also for the first week in July I’m going to be staying at my dad’s house which will probably suck because my brother and that girl he dates will be there but luckily they’re going away (stupidly) for the fourth but that least I won’t have to see them. I’m going to be helping my friend with watching her mom’s house while her mom is out of town. I don’t really see why Catie can’t do it herself. I know that she doesn’t like having to drive back and forth between her house and her mom’s but it’s not that far and it’s not like she has a job, she does help her husband (gag I can’t stand that guy.) at his store but she can take a week to help her mom, plus Catie’s sister is still around and can help more, but like I think I said whatever. It lets me go out and do something even I do have to be in the same house with that girl my brother dates. Plus last time I helped out they gave me sixty bucks and I don’t know if I’ll get that again but I’m hoping.
I don’t know what else is going on, well I do know and it’s not a whole lot, I should say I don’t know if there’s anything else worth mentioning. Um, my puppy graduates from intermediate obedience class on Monday.
Yesterday I went and bought my ticket for Hanson so now I get to go and see them in August. I love Hanson.
My mom’s dog is going to be in a dog show in July, according to my mom she’s totally going to blow it. Echo is a good dog and she follows directions well but for some reason when she’s off leash in the ring she totally forgets that she’s supposed to be listening to my mom. Hopefully she’ll be better then my mom thinks that she will be.
I’m probably going to see Harry and the Potters in July, they’re going to be in Ypsilanti and I think I may have talked my sister into going. I thought I had her convinced to go down to Akron for roflcoptour but she decided that it would be too far so that sucks but Ypsi is only ten minutes from her apartment so we can probably work it, it just depends on if she wants to stay out late on a work night. (yeah my sister is sort of a super dork but hey I appreciate her work ethic, I mean without it how is she going to take care of me in my old age?)
I think that covers even the stuff that’s not worth mentioning so I’m going to go for now.

This not doing anything for the summer is really getting me down. I didn’t try to get financial aid for summer semester because I thought that I would be busy or something and clearly that idea was wrong. I’m still trying to get a job but that hunt is not going well. (Is anyone really surprised about this?) Sigh one day I’ll be a proper adult. Anyway I’m really excited for fall when school starts back up. The main reason I think I went back to school aside from the fact that I decided that I needed an actual degree rather then just my film school diploma is that I needed a way to get out of my dad’s house and I needed something productive to do. That worked really well I am out of my Dad’s house which is awesome because being over there is super depressing, also when I’m actually attending classes I feel like I’m working towards something I have something that I can tell people I’m doing and I found out that I actually really like learning. I knew that I liked it before but high school kind of beat that out of me and my first attempt at college wasn’t much better. I’m in a better place to understand education in general and I really really like it. A couple days ago I finally found out when I’ll be able to register for next semester so I spent and good part of the day trying to figure out my schedule which given that I can’t actually register for the month the school didn’t exactly have all of the information I needed but I did decide on the classes I wanted and some of the classes had teachers attached so with some searching on rate my professor I ruled out some teachers which was good. My school is supposed to be a community college aka local but they have five campuses spread out over southeast Michigan and some classes you can only get at certain locations which means serious driving. I found out that one of the classes I need for my major is only offered in one section at one location, this is seriously frustrating because I go to the Royal Oak campus it is close enough that I can walk (not happily because it is a really long walk but I can do it) and I can stay at my mom’s, this class is at the Orchard Ridge campus which is in Farmington which is at the absolute very least 45 min. to an hour drive and I don’t have a car still and I can’t ask my mom do make that drive which mean’s I’m going to have to stay at my dad’s for a night a week and get him to take me because it’s still far but it’s closer from there. So that’s super annoying but I’m hoping that something will pop up for that before I actually register that way I don’t have to spend all my time going all over the planet for class.
So um yeah I meant this to be more cheerful and have more then just a rant but I’m sort of bored with writing now and my computer is really starting to burn the crap out of my leg so I’m going to go and hopefully I have something better for you next time.
Oh here’s something possibly cheerful, I may have talked my sister in going down to Ohio for the wrock show in Akron which I’m really hoping will happen because I really want to go even if it is really far it’s the second closest show and I already missed the closest one but it’s okay because if I had gone to the one is Harper Woods then I wouldn’t be able to see All Caps who I’m really excited for. So yay happy.

p.s. I’m really not as depressed as the blogging would lead a person to believe. I am this bored but not so depressed.

p.p.s. I just wanted to add in a couple pictures so the first is at my sister’s graduation and the second two I took in my backyard a couple weeks ago.

Pen Contest

Really quick, I’m entered in a contest to win a new camera and $5,000. You may have seen something about it if you are on youtube ever recently. I really want to win (obviously otherwise I wouldn’t be entered ) but the trouble is that in order to even be considered for winning first you need to have the top twenty votes. As we know I have a slight problem with invisibility and people tend to ignore my videos (seriously I have one with 0 views) and now Nina from the Moaning Myrtles has entered and has Hank Green on her side thus putting all of Nerdfighteria against me. The video has been up for two days and so far I only have two votes which is not going to help me. As it is I know I won’t win because of the invisibility factor but I still and trying and I would like to at least have a fighting chance. So if you guys could do me a favor and please just thumb up my video I would really really really appreciate it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SKfDRep6gRw

Money and Grades

Ugh, did I mention last time that my cat doesn’t let me sleep in the mornings? I can’t remember. I can’t wait for my mom to get home, I can go back to sleeping in the morning. It’s not like I want to sleep that late all I’m asking is or 7:30, trouble is my mom usually gets up at 4:30 so the animals don’t like waiting that long, it’s frustrating. I’ve been living on coffee.
I’m also really worried about my bills, trying to pay my phone bill this month I found out that my credit card is maxed out even though I pay it every month, I know I should pay off the whole amount every month and I did that for a long time but then I lent money to my dad, he’s always paid me back in the past but this time he kept asking for more and there is no sign of him ever paying me back and I can’t pay off the card. I’ve stopped giving him anything which is a good thing and I’m not buying anything I can’t pay for I pay off everything I buy in the month but I think it’s the interest that has but me over the edge, it’s really frustrating because I could handle my bills if it weren’t for the stupid card. I’m trying to get a job so that I can pay for it but no one will hire me, or even have me in for an interview. I’m thinking maybe I can try to sell something on the internet. I know it’s unrealistic to think that I could make a living doing that but all I need is $2000 which is a lot but I don’t think it’s too much to think I could make. I don’t really have anything I could sell but maybe my photography? I know I only have like four readers on here but is that something maybe people would buy? Do you guys have any suggestions? I really need to figure something out to get me out of this and any help at all would be appreciated.

On a not depressing or begging note I got my grades back for the semester. My Mass Media class is still messing with me because on the official thing it says I got an N which means non-attending I emailed the teacher as he said that was an error and that I was supposed to get an A- which shocks me because I was sure that I wouldn’t get higher then a C but I’ll take it so that was exciting. My stress class which I was sure I would get an A in I only got a B which makes me mad I think it was graded more on the teacher’s opinion rather then my actual grades because a good chunk of that was based on participation and while I participated I don’t think I participated enough for him, it’s annoying but still better then almost everything I’ve ever gotten in a college class. Everything else I got an A in and that means that I got on the Deans List. I’m so happy about this school thing because last time I was in college classes I bombed horribly and I am really glad that this is working out so well.

Beda April 30: Ten Things

I know I didn’t post yesterday but I left the house at 8 am and didn’t spend more then a few minutes back here until about ten pm and then I had last minute homework to do and I just didn’t have the time. I’m going to try and do this quick because I need to go to sleep as soon as I can because tomorrow I have to be up at six so I can get to Ann Arbor because my sister is graduating from U of M and since Obama is speaking we have to get there crazy early to get through security and stuff so I have most of what I was going to say yesterday pre written it is just a list of 25 random things about me. So here that is:

1. I am Vegetarian
2. My favorite band in the universe is Silverchair
3. I am afraid of almost everything
4. My favorite place I have ever been is New York
5. I think in general I am crazy boring
6. I am a film school graduate and am now trying to get a 4 year degree hopefully in photography
7. For some reason I cannot fill out forms in order
8. I've had gray hair since I was 14
9. I hate lima beans
10. My favorite color changes by the second
11. I hate the taste of toothpaste and prefer the orange flavor
12. My name is post credits on the Clerks 2 DVD
13. I'm terrible at math
14. I really miss being in band
15. I have secretly always wanted to be a dancer but I don't have the talent or the body for it
16. I keep all sorts of lists
17. I'm jealous of people who have religion
18. I'm pretty sure I don't see myself clearly
19. I am trying to read 100 books this year, so far I'm at 29
20. I am allergic to nice weather (seriously I get itchy and break out in hives it's terrible.)
21. I miss nanowrimo because it gave me a reason to work on my book
22. When I was six I tackled a boy I liked at recess and kissed him, I wish I still had that confidence.
23. I want to travel more then I have
24. My favorite candy is graham cracker bits coated in chocolate, I only know of one place that sells them
25. I really want a vespa

The short version of what I was going to talk about today is my playlist for the month of April made up of the song titles I used as blog titles so here’s that:

1. Astronaut: A Short History of Nearly Nothing by Amanda Palmer
2. Creep by Radiohead
3. Forgotten by Linkin Park
4. Movies by Alien Ant Farm
5. Nothing Much Happens by Ben Lee
6. Distraction by Angels and Airwaves
7. Coming Clean by Green Day
8. Things I Don’t Understand by Coldplay
9. Maureen by Fountains of Wayne
10. Too Late by No Doubt
11. Introduction by Panic! at the Disco
12. Thinking in Reverse by The Dissociatives
13. Green Day by Green Day
14. Whatever it is by Ben Lee
15. The Adventure by Angels and Airwaves
16. Eight Years Old by Ben Lee
17. Just the Faces Change by Travis
18. Scattered by Green Day
19. Looking For Alaska by Liane Graham
20. Short and Sweet by Julia Nunes
21. An Awful Lot of Running by Chameleon Circuit
22. Gimme Some Truth by John Lennon
23. Ten Things by Paul Baribeau

I hope everything is good with everyone, I really hope that everyone will keep blogging after this because I really like having your blogs to read and I like having internet friends.

Beda April 28: Gimme Some Truth

I am so busy today. I’m not sure I have enough time to actually get this blog done. I had my last film class today, it was a joke. We watched a documentary about the 1939 Worlds Fair. It was super boring and then the teacher told us to make sure we used a certain format when we wrote the paper for it. Yeah this was the last class I don’t think I’m going to be doing anymore homework for it. We also got to do faculty evaluations, I’m really looking forward to all of those because I have strong opinions on my teachers. They asked a bunch of questions about the teacher like “does he have enthusiasm for the subject” “is he knowledgeable” “does he make you want to learn more” I had to give this guy below average on everything aside from enthusiasm, and then they asked a couple of questions that sort of force you to put something positive like one was “What did you like best about this class?” I didn’t like anything about this class so I said “I like that after I wrote my four papers nothing was expected of me.” Which I guess is positive but really doesn’t look good for the teacher. I’m not trying to be mean to this teacher on purpose but I put in a lot of money for this class (well financial aid did) and I want to get what I paid for. If I didn’t already know about film I would not know anything based off of this class. That’s an awkward sentence but you know what I mean right? The point of that is that I needed to tell the truth more then I needed to be nice. During the little lecture section we had today I found out that this guy I’m pretty sure isn’t aware of what decade it really is. He started talking about the Worlds Fair that happened in 1960 and then asked “you guys remember 1960 right?” I thought he was joking at first, my uncle says stuff like that to me all the time but then we went on with “sure you do.” And he was dead serious, he kept on talking like we were all alive and aware in 1960. Based on what I’ve seen in that class there is maybe one person who was born sometime in the 60’s and everyone else is definitely 80’s and 90’s.
Subject change, Glee last night was not my favorite episode ever. I didn’t really like any of the songs and I wasn’t a fan of how Sue got away with trying to kill Mercedes. I did love Kristin Chenoweth, although again I wasn’t a huge fan of any of her songs this week. I really was hoping for a meeting of April and whatsherface the leader of Vocal Adrenaline played by Idina. That may not have made any sense to the plot but I like bringing the Broadway together. I’m also really hoping for Rachel and Jesse to have a Spring Awakening song. One other thing I really worry about is now that Will’s divorced or getting divorced, why is every age appropriate lady throwing herself at him? If he liked Emma so much why isn’t he waiting for her? Why is he making out with Idina and then sort of living with April? Still my favorite show right now but I wasn’t totally thrilled with this episode. Every show has some misses, Glee was bound to have one eventually.
I have to get back to studying now. Later.

Beda April 27: An Awful Lot of Running

I am so excited that this is my last week of school. I officially have only four days left of classes. I am DREADING Friday but otherwise I’m excited.
My computer has been acting up for the last couple days. It’s working now but I’m still afraid of what it will do. This computer has given me trouble ever since I got it. It will spend several days crashing all the time and then it will be fine for like three months and then start crashing all over again. I want a new one but I can’t afford it right now. (Reason number 815 why I need a job.)
I’m not really sure what else I should write about today. I haven’t really done much in the past week, I’ve been sick (although feeling much better now) and then I spent the weekend trying to get my computer working and hanging out the Jessi and her cousin Holly. That sucked a bit. Jessi really wanted to do something with Holly because…well I’m not really sure why, but she decided that we needed to take her out to Ann Arbor, then when we tried to go it was raining that day so she decided to take her to the mall in Ann Arbor, which was lame, I am not really a mall person, especially when I don’t have money and then Holly got all weird and moody which made Jess weird and moody and that was awkward, oh and I should mention that Holly is only 12 so Jess and I were both trying to make Holly feel cool because she was hanging out with the grown ups (god that freaks me out to think of myself like that.) and also maintain authority. It just sucked.
Um what else?
I don’t know.
I’m really busy for the rest of this week. Today I don’t have anything but Glee going on. Tomorrow I’m taking Alaska to see Miles at Echo’s dog class. Thursday we are celebrating my brother’s birthday which as far as I can tell no one is excited about. He’s being a giant douche about everything and made us change when we were going to celebrate twice, my mom is mad enough at him that she’s only getting him clothes, I think she was going to tell him to forget about it entirely but he’s still her kid so she feels like she has to do something. (Yeah the reason he keeps blowing us off is because of his girlfriend.) Anyway Friday I’m going to the dog park with my mom and some of her work friends (who are actually about my age, yeah my mom is the old lady at work) Saturday I have to go out to Ann Arbor for my little sister’s graduation. I’m kinda excited for this one because Barak Obama is supposed to be there and also I’m really proud of Casey, she’s the first one of us to graduate from a four year school also she was part of the engineering school which isn’t exactly easy, it’s kind of literally rocket science. (Oh yeah to add to Nicky’s douchery he’s not coming to Casey’s graduation and if he does go he’s bailing out early to go and celebrate his birthday some more with that girl he dates.) Sunday I’m going downtown to see Spring Awakening and then on Monday I have my final final. So yeah a little busy, plus I still have school and studying.
Okay going to go now, it’s still early but I’m trying to take it easy on my computer and also I want to see if I can sell my school books so I have to go and put them for sale.

Beda April 26: Short and Sweet

Hey I don’t want you all to think that I forgot about blogging or something. I didn’t, My computer has been randomly crashing and I haven’t been able to get anything written. You’ll get a real post soon.

Beda April 23: Looking For Alaska

Oh my god, I just watched whatthebuck, Vanessa Hudgens in RENT?!?!? Oh my god, why would they do that????!!!!! That is the worst idea ever in the history of the universe!!!! They can’t mix High School Musical crap with my favorite show ever.
Sorry I don’t mean to overuse the punctuation or to be dramatic but this show is very important to me. It was the first show I ever saw on Broadway or at all really, it is the show that opened me up to musicals, I hate to sound cliché but it literally changed my life. I wouldn’t be me without it. It pretty much defined my first two years in college. I know that I will never see this girl in the show because it’s just a thing in Hollywood or something like that and no way will I be able to get there and I’m sure that there have been plenty of people that I would have hated in previous shows and sure having her in there will probably bring in people that normally wouldn’t have gone there at all and maybe it will give them something, but I just can’t get comfortable with that. Sorry I really don’t want to bring everyone down with my complaining but you know how it is when something is important to you. (It’s sort of similar to when Good Charlotte did a cover of a Silverchair song, it’s not pretty and never should have happened. Have I mentioned that Silverchair is my favorite thing ever?)
Okay I’m going to talk about something nice now because I want to be happy.
As you know I moved in with my mom in January. A couple weeks after doing that she started talking about how I needed a puppy. A couple weeks after that we were watching a movie that had a border collie in it and I offhandedly mentioned that I liked that dog, the next day she was on the AKC website looking up border collies for me. I know this makes me sound like a spoiled little girl getting a puppy just because I mentioned that I liked one. That really is not what happened. My Mom had recently had to give up one of her dogs because she attacked my cat and I think my Mom really wanted another dog in the house but she didn’t want to just get one for herself because she felt bad giving up Crash because aside from trying to kill Suki she was a really good dog and I think she would think of it as replacing Crash if she got a dog for herself but if she gets another dog and says it’s for me then it’s not a replacement. Anyway, I’ve been wanting to talk about my puppy because as soon as my Mom mentioned that I should get a dog I started thinking about names and I kinda love the one I came up with. So anyway, (this story is really all over the place sorry about that) on valentine’s day I drove out with my Mom out into the middle of nowhere to pick up my border collie puppy who for some reason the breeder (yes I know I should rescue dogs but I can’t save them all and both of my cats are rescues so I feel justified.) thought that my dog was named Becca, that is so obviously not the case so here is a picture of my puppy Alaska:



Oh one more thing. My mom takes one of her dogs to agility class and one of the teachers there has one of the first border collies I’ve met in real life and he will be the first Border collie Alaska meets and his name is Miles. I kinda love that.

Sorry this blog is all over the place, I don’t know what my deal is today.

Beda April 22: Scattered

My cat is being annoying today. Every chance she gets she is upstairs in my room. Normally I don’t mind but she keeps trying to get into my food when I’m eating or sit on my lap while I’m trying to type, or suck on my fingers while I’m trying to type, or curling up against my computer and reaching out her paws and yanking on keys with her nails while pressing all sorts of things and changing settings. I hate it when she does that. I know she’s just trying to hang out and be adorable but I really hate it when she turns off my computer when I’m in the middle of something.
Still sick but things are looking up.
Are any of you guys into Broadway? I have been very into Broadway ever since my senior year of high school. I don’t know a whole ton about it I just know the shows that I’m into which isn’t a lot but I love them and am super loyal to them, oh and not all of them are technically Broadway some are off Broadway…but that’s not really the point. The point is that I wanted to talk about American Idiot. I have never seen this show but I’ve known about it for it feels like years now, ever since they said that they were doing something like a two week trial in California. I desperately want to see this show. Especially since I found out that it has John Gallagher Jr. in it who I’ve loved since before I knew who he was. (Thank you Spring Awakening for letting me know who a ton of my new favorite actors are.) I bought the version of 21 Guns that the cast did with Green Day and I freaking love it and have been waiting for the whole soundtrack to come out. It came out on Tuesday, I can’t afford to buy it right now since (ironically?) I spent my last twenty bucks on my Green Day ticket, I did however find a way to get my hands (or my ears really) on a copy yesterday. I’ve been listening to it all day and I think that I have an opinion now. As I would hope you know I love Green Day and as you may not know I have strong opinions about them (for example don’t get me started on the Wake Me up When September Ends video.) My opinion on this soundtrack is that I like it. It took a while to get used to hearing the songs that I know practically backwards sung differently…I’m still getting used to that, but having the understanding that this has to be something different from what I know otherwise of course it would just be a Green Day concert with a plot…which would be awesome but that’s not what this is. That helps. The whole thing starts with American Idiot just as we know it except with different singers which kind of puts you in a weird vibe like “is this some sort of alternate reality” or something but as other songs go on they introduce strings and whatnot which helps to put you more in the “this is a musical” state of mind it sort or is an alternate reality but it’s one that doesn’t suck, the strings help to make the songs just different enough from the originals that it doesn’t sound like karaoke. They also have a couple new songs which I’m not sure I like yet, because they have sort of backing tracks that I swear are from other songs so it sounds like the singer is just singing the wrong lyrics but I suppose I’ll get used to that, there are only two of those and one of them they have actual Green Day singing at the end so hopefully I’ll get used to hearing that and then get used to the musical version, those songs also aren’t really my favorites, they sound like they belong on the b-side of a single maybe, they just have a quality that I’m not sure fits with the show but as I’ve said I haven’t seen the show so maybe in context they will be wonderful but with the flow of the soundtrack they sound out of place. Something else I have to point out that I really like is that they did a mash up of Last of the American Girls and She’s a Rebel and I just really like they way they did that.
I think that’s all I had to say about that. Slightly different topic…but not really. I freaking loved Glee on Tuesday! (Oh side note I spoil things like crazy when I talk about them so if you don’t want to be spoiled on things just don’t read anything I write ever, I would think that you would have already watched Glee if you care about it and therefore this won’t have spoilers but I’m really more just warning you for future reference, I like spoilers and I forget that other people don’t sorry.) I did have to watch Like a Virgin with my mom which was a little awkward but I had a chair between me and her and I couldn’t see her reaction and I really hope that she was more interested in the puppy then what was going on on TV. I have to say, I’m kinda in love with Jonathan Groff, he was so creepy awesome in that library scene and then asking about the care bear, I love it, I know he was kind of a jerk for pressuring Rachel but come on him asking her to come out of the bathroom so that they could talk about it, or at least sing about it. That was awesome. I can’t think of anything I have ever seen him in that I didn’t love him. One thing I’m wondering about though is how come whenever anyone sings Like a Prayer there is always a black choir in full robes just waiting to sing? They live in Ohio it’s just a little unrealistic (I know the whole thing is a little unrealistic but everyone has their limits. Funny story about that later) I did love their version of Like a Prayer though. I actually love that song it was the first Madonna song I ever heard, my friend Catie introduced it to me, she had a whole dance worked out for it that we would do and we listened to it a lot so I have history with that song. Back to Glee, I want to know what sort of health coverage those teachers are getting cause seriously they have counseling covered and the people will come to you and work with whatever you need, where can I get that? Where can anyone get that really? Those people in LA need to do a little bit of Ohio research. I think they forget sometimes that they aren’t in California…although I did appreciate in the episode when Finn tells Quinn’s parents that she’s pregnant that he called it pop so at least they got that right.
Okay off topic story about the suspension of disbelief. My dad is big on history particularly military history. Once he was watching this movie on the Sci Fi channel about I think WWII except there were dinosaurs. Everything seemed to be going fine in the movie (well as fine as it can go in a movie about WWII with dinosaurs) then they had a shot of the interior of a plane and my dad took one look at that and got all disgusted that they had gotten the control panels all wrong. So I guess dinosaurs flying around during WWII is no big deal but a messed up control panel is just completely unbelievable.
Anyway I should go and like try to heal or something to here ends today’s blog.

Beda April 21: Just the Faces Change

Today is the worst I’ve felt yet. I’m seeing this as a good sign though, I keep sneezing like crazy and that usually doesn’t happen until the end of illness so fingers crossed for tomorrow. I feel kinda bad for the people in my classes. I know I always get annoyed with people when they come in and they’re sick. I fully understand why they do it but still it’s distracting and seriously I would stay home except that it’s the last two weeks and there is very important information being given out that I really shouldn’t miss.
I’m not entirely sure what made me think of this but I really miss Degrassi. I know that it’s still on the air and all that but it’s not the same. I miss the stuff from the first few seasons of the next generation when they still had all of the new originals and sometimes they would have original originals on, and yes I know Snake is still on sometimes but he’s just not Snake anymore, he’s Mr. Simpson one of those stock teachers they use when they need a classroom scene and what about Spike? She’s still married to Snake why isn’t she around more? Why do they only bring her out when they want to have a thing about vibrators? And why does she need that? Isn’t Snake good enough for her? Although looking back at Snake and Spike I don’t really see them getting together. I think that they only got together because they were the only ones who would come back for a long term thing…aside from Caitlin and Joey but you can’t really break them up. Speaking of breaking up Caitlin and Joey, whatever happened to Tessa Campenelli? I always thought that she was too young for Joey anyway and besides I love Caitlin and Joey…oh yeah how come when Caitlin comes back she doesn’t have any epilepsy issues anymore, I mean yes she’s a grown up but really that is sort of what her character was all about. Also why is Spinner allowed to date kids in high school? He should have graduated in season 5 that’s just not right. I miss JT. Random. Yeah I have a few issues with Degrassi but I love it and I miss how it was and now it’s just like cheap versions of old episodes. I mean seriously Johnny thinks he gave Alli an STD but she didn’t actually have it. That sounds sort of like the time Jay gave Emma gonorrhea. Craig gets a drug problem, Peter gets a drug problem. And Paige was way cooler then Holly J. Why does her name have to have that J anyway? I have issues with her anyway because I can only see her as Naturally Sadie. I need to stop complaining about my Degrassi issues, really my point is that I miss it and I want the old/new version back. I really should save some money and buy the DVD.

Beda April 20: 8 Years Old

I wish I had some medicine. All I want is a cough drop but we don’t have any. Why is it that when I don’t need them I find them all over the place and when I do they are nowhere to be seen? Ugh I feel gross and all I want to do is take a nap but if I did that then I wouldn’t sleep tonight and then I would fall asleep in class tomorrow…again. I know I’ll be healthy within a week because it’s not like I have something severe (knock on theoretical wood) it’s just a cold and those only feel like they last forever when really they only usually last about a week. I just hope I’m better by Friday because that is the day of my Mass Media class which as we discussed, I hate, but on Friday he is going to give us an hour to write a paper in class (we he refuses to tell us anything about) so I really want my brain to be functioning at full capacity by then because while I have decided that if I fail I don’t care, that doesn’t mean I want to fail, I still plan on trying my best and hoping for a decent grade.

Today is Glee day number two. I am very excited for this and hope that my mom chooses not to watch because I really don’t want to watch anything Madonna related with my Mother.

Um have I mentioned my obsession with Hanson? I know I did a whole blog post about it in October on my other blog (which is just this blog on a different site, but the Hanson post didn’t get put up here because I had pictures and the formatting of this site was messing with them.) but I can’t remember if I’ve said anything on here. Anyway I am obsessed with Hanson. Don’t judge me, I was ten when mmmbop came out, I was sort of their core demographic. I never grew out of that love, I assume because they were the first band I got into after I crawled out from under the rock I had been living under until then. Anyway not the point. Today I was catching up on my youtube subscriptions because I’m behind thanks to this whole education thing. Hanson is putting out a new album soon, (In June I think) and they just released a video for their first song and Zac put up a couple videos of him trying to get to so many views by a certain point and he was acting all crazy and whatnot and I could not help giggling like I little girl about it. I think that my point here is that, what is it about seeing things that you love from growing up that makes you turn into a ten year old with a giant crush? Is that just me? Why is it that Hanson does this but Backstreet Boys don’t? (again core demographic) I don’t think it’s just nostalgia. Anyway I was kinda wondering about that since I spent a good part of the day giggling over Hanson today. (Oh and for the record I do have a ten year old crush (meaning age ten not ten years ago) on Zac Hanson and fully maintain that I would have been prefect for him if I had ever met him but now I would feel bad if he left his wife for me (because this would SOOO happen) I mean he’s got a kid man, you can’t get in between that.

Beda April 19: The Adventure

Saturday I went and bought my ticket to see Green Day. It was a lot harder then it should have been. Here is why.
The Show is going to be at DTE Energy Music Theater, I have only been there once and when I went I got my ticket online, Laurie has been to several shows there and I know that the last time we went she had to go to the box office to buy her ticket. This time we all have gotten smart and realized that if you buy at the box office you don’t have to pay all those stupid fees that make your ticket twice as expensive. So Saturday we all got to Laurie’s house and moved to leave when Laurie asked me if I knew how to get there. Normally I am really good about making sure I know exactly where we are going and having extra maps and whatnot but this time I assumed that since Laurie had done this before she would know exactly what to do and where to go, this obviously was not the case. So we got Jessica’s GPS and guessed that all we would have to do is show up at the venue and there would be some sort of markers, so we got in the car and headed off, right after getting on the freeway, Jessica’s GPS started flashing that it was low on battery even though it was plugged in, then it died. Luckily we found out which exit we needed before that happened but still not the best. We drove for maybe half an hour and found our exit then followed the extremely convenient signs. We got to the gate and no one was around so we drove in a bit farther and still nothing, we drove all around that thing and there was just no one there at all no security or anything. I kind of wish that I weren’t so averse to getting arrested because we could have probably gone wandering all over the inside of that place and no one would have noticed but I didn’t want to take the chance. Anyway there was no one there so we figured we’d call the box office so Laurie called information and got the number but it was the number of the Palace which is not where we wanted to call, so Jessica used the handy dandy internet on her phone and looked it up and we found out that yes we actually did want to talk to the Palace. Laurie called them and they told us that the DTE box office didn’t open until mid may and that if we wanted to get tickets we had to go to the Palace box office because they were connected in some way (they didn’t say in some way I just can’t remember the way they were connected.) So we had to back track to the Palace, we knew we had passed it on our way out to DTE so we got back on the freeway and drove until we saw signs. There were two exits it said we could take, the first one looked very not promising so we passed it and went to the second one, as we were getting off there was another sign saying the Palace was to the right so we went right and there was no sign of anything and no more signs, we drove a bit farther and saw the Palace but it was on a totally different road and we couldn’t figure out how to get there, then we saw a sign saying Palace Ramp, we didn’t know what exactly that meant but we figured that if it got us at least pointed in the right direction we would take it. The signs took us in circles for a bit before finally we passed a thing saying it was the Palace Ramp and it was very closed, we passed it and then found out that once we had gone that far our only choices were to either get on I75 north or south, we chose north because there was the other entrance we skipped over. We drove to that and just off the freeway was a tiny sign pointing to a tiny street telling us to follow it, so we did. It stretched on and on and on and we were pretty sure that we had done something wrong but couldn’t really go back the way we had come so we kept driving. It took forever but finally we saw the Palace in front of us with actual driveways leading into it. The first one we got to was blocked, as was the second, and the third, and the fourth, finally we got to an entrance that was blocked. I can’t begin to tell you how excited we were to finally be there, not just because we were going to get our tickets after all but because it was a sense of accomplishment. We pulled in and there was a guard who told us exactly where we needed to go and we walked in and the people behind the counter we super nice and it was awesome. Then when we were about to leave Laurie asked a different guard guy if we could use the bathroom and instead of just answering her he started talking into his radio asking for a bathroom escort and then had to wait for the okay then he had to walk us to the bathroom which was a little weird but we got to see some of the inner workings of the Palace which was cool, although with all the walking through doors that had big signs that had giant warnings never to open them, and the being escorted, and the radios I was convinced that he wasn’t taking us to the bathroom at all but to some secret lab or something like that. (He did just take us to the bathroom and back) Then we left and had no issues whatsoever getting home. I’m really excited that I got my ticket and I also like that I got a story out of trying to buy it.

I’m not sure that the story makes sense, I can’t be bothered to go back and read it and I’ve been writing on and off all day and you know how sometimes you leave writing and come back to it and you have a totally different style then when you were writing before (is that just me) anyway that might have happened I don’t know. While we were off having this adventure I also managed to catch Jessi’s cold and my head is in a total fog and words aren’t making a whole lot of sense to me so I hope that everything made sense. I’m going to go to sleep now.

Beda April 18: Whatever it is

I’ve been meaning to write my blog all day, I’ve also been meaning to do my homework all day. I totally put it off until about 9 and of course today’s homework was on the longest chapter in the entire book, as soon as I started trying to read the chapter my dad called and I had to talk to him for a little while, then I started reading again, then I got distracted watching Flight of the Conchords videos on youtube then I got back to the reading and it was REALLY BORING. I could not focus on it at all like AT ALL so I kinda bs’ed my way through the assignment and now I’m doing the blog. I kinda hate school right now, not that I hate the learning or getting out of the house, I just have hit the wall for the moment and need to take a break, I wish finals were this week instead of next, it’s so close but I still have to deal with this week and that’s a bit frustrating. (I really do like Flight of the Conchords (I’m listening to them right now so it’s not totally out of nowhere) how is it that I never listened to them before now? I mean come one “Ain’t no party like my nana’s tea party” or binary solo totally awesome)
I need a nap, I didn’t sleep well last night. You guys know I didn’t expect to but I slept worse then I thought I would. Laurie’s room is made for maybe one extra person and we had three crammed in there so I was sort of pressed flat on my side up against some shelves with a person right behind me. It was crazy uncomfortable, I think I did something to my shoulder because of that. Sorry if that’s too whiney but it’s my life and it’s what happened so I could say something else but something else didn’t happen.
Okay yes too tired to be writing, I’m not sure what I’ve been saying or what exactly is going on so I’ll have a (insert fancy connecting word here) (cohesive?) (co-something I know that much) post tomorrow about the adventures of buying concert tickets.

Beda April 17: Green Day

Today I don’t have a lot of time to write anything. I should be packing some stuff but instead I’m doing my blog.
So today I’m going over to my friend Laurie’s house, while I’m not excited to have to sleep on her floor I am excited to be out of the house and doing things with my friends. I get to see my best friend Jessica today, unless she’s sick which she might be, but either way I’m excited about that I haven’t seen her in like a month or more which is really weird for us because she’s been my best friend since the sixth grade and when we went to college we lived together for two years and after we both dropped out I still saw her at least once a week, so going a month without seeing her is really really really weird.
Today also we’re going to go out and buy tickets to see Green Day. The show isn’t until August but if we buy early we can get lawn seats for twenty bucks so that’s our plan. I am so freaking excited to see Green Day, I love them and have seen them every time that have come to Detroit since I was fifteen. They are in my top three favorite bands to see, actually I think they are tied for number two, but that’s not the point, the point is that of all of the times I have seen them they have never once put on a bad show, seriously if you ever get the chance to see them DO IT! They are funny and interactive and their playing rocks. I can’t say enough nice things about it, I am just so freaking excited to be able to go and see them again.
Not really a whole lot else going on today and I really should go and finish getting some stuff together. I’m staying over at Laurie’s tonight. While I’m, like I said, not thrilled about sleeping on the floor and have sort of outgrown the whole sleepover thing. Laurie hasn’t quite yet and there are only so many times I can make excuses, besides I’m pretty sure my mom would appreciate a night with the house to herself and that’s the least I can do for her.

Beda April 16: Thinking in Reverse

I’m not sure what I should talk about today. I think I fried my brain a little yesterday writing that stupid paper. Did I talk about why I hated that paper yet? If I did I’m sorry but I’m going to do it again.
The paper is for my Mass Media class and the assignment was to rewrite the first amendment to include the different forms of media that we’ve studied saying whether we would regulate them or not and if so how. Then the rest of the paper we were supposed to explain why we chose to limit them they way we did. So for my paper I decided not to have the government regulate anything because I’m not a fan of censorship because it could easily get out of control and make us live in a bland grey drone world. So the whole thins was about censorship and why it is a bad thing. This makes sense right? We’ll I got my paper back and the teacher had put giant x’s through the entire thing and left a little note saying that it was irrelevant, and at the end said that the assignment was to discuss media not censorship. This just doesn’t make sense to me. I did discuss media, I discussed why it would be bad for us to censor media as a whole, would have preferred I turn in something saying “we should not censor television because it would be bad for the government to have that kind of control. We should not censor books because how would kids do their learning?” I really doubt that. So I had to rewrite the entire paper, you can see why I didn’t really feel like trying. I gave him my best effort and he didn’t even bother to look at my side of the argument or I suspect read anything past the first paragraph.
He was talking today in class with one of the girls who sits a couple rows in front of me and is slightly older then most people in the class (she is old enough to have a teenage son.) Renee was saying that she appreciates that the younger people in the class were taught to think critically and that we were also taught that it is good to have our own opinions. Then the teacher complained that while we were taught to have our own opinions, we weren’t taught to back up those opinions. He also said that some idiot (he didn’t say idiot I did) student came up to him after getting back his original paper and said that he appreciated the notes because Carlespie was teaching us how to think and write critically. I have an issue with that. First of all this dude is not teaching me anything (seriously not a damn thing for the first six weeks he tested us and then “taught” the chapter) I know how to think critically and while I am not the best writer I can certainly write critically. Secondly I did back up my opinions in my paper I had eight for a two page thing so don’t tell me I didn’t back it up. Secondly part B Sometimes an opinion is just an opinion otherwise you are just parroting someone else’s opinion, sometimes you have to be able to think for yourself otherwise who are you? You are just a shell waiting for someone to come along and tell you what to think and how to act and who to be. I don’t want to be that I want to have my own opinions based on my own thoughts, if they happen to coincide with someone else’s great but I do not want to base my thoughts solely on the thoughts of someone else.
I know I should look on the bright side for this paper but I can’t. I know I am going to fail it for three reasons. First is that I didn’t try that hard the second time around. Second I still wrote about censorship I just tried to make it sound less like I was doing that. Third for a good chunk of my paper (like half) I just copied out giant quotes from other people. He wants my opinions back up he can have the one sentence that is my opinion and then get three paragraphs about fascism from Mussolini.
Thank you very much Mr. supposed teacher but I will take the F, retake the class with someone else, and keep my opinions my own.

Beda April 14:Introduction

My second story of meeting and author is much more plausible (seeing as how I was there and know it happened.) also it is much more anti climactic.
When I was 19 I was just getting into author websites one of the first ones I checked out was Meg Cabot’s because, obviously Meg Cabot come on why would you not look that up? But I looked on there and saw that she was doing a book tour and that within a few weeks she would be in Ann Arbor which was right down the street from where my apartment had been (I had only just dropped out of Eastern at this point) and was maybe a 40 minute drive from my house, if traffic was bad. So I asked my best friend if she wanted to go and like she usually does with things that I care about which she has no idea about she said she didn’t really want to go, so I turned to my other friend Amber (she wasn’t my second choice I was going to call her anyway she was the one that first told me about Meg Cabot and introduced me to my favorite series my her) of I think when I told her she actually screamed. Then seeing as how neither Amber or I had our driver’s licenses yet we coerced my boyfriend at the time Adam to take us. The day arrived and Adam and I started the trek by driving 40 minutes in the opposite direction of Ann Arbor to pick up Amber who was living with an English teacher from our high school (It sounds weird but it was a good thing, although I think it was technically kidnap since Amber was 17, anyway sorry different story just know that Amber’s parents were abusive and it was a good thing.) We got to Mrs. Pearson’s house and she was smiling like only an English teacher can when she sees students actually into books. (According to Amber when she showed off her signed book Mrs. Pearson actually hugged her.) The three of us then got back into Adam’s car and drove to Ann Arbor. We got to the Borders where Meg Cabot was and instantly knew where we needed to be, a big crowd was gathered around a tiny seating area. Why would the Borders people think that Meg freaking Cabot would only need 20 chairs? Anyway it wasn’t long before some employee came out and introduced Meg Cabot. Amber, Adam and I were stuck near the back of the crowd but we could still see just fine. Meg talked about how she got into writing and about how she met her husband and about how if it weren’t for him she wouldn’t be writing. It was awesome just to hear her talk about everything. Then she answered some questions, I don’t remember exactly what all of them were I know several of them were “Are you going to write another book from (enter series name here)?” At one point she called on Amber and seeing as how we hadn’t thought to think up the best questions ever she asked if there was going to be another book from the mediator series. Sadly Meg Cabot said no although she did give good reason’s why. I think that if he just tried a little she could come up with another good mediator book but whatever, it was getting a little silly by the end. After the Q and A we all had to line up and snake around the store so that she could sign our books. Amber and I ended up at the middle front of the line. We got closer and closer and I got more and more nervous. Finally we got to the front. Amber went first and chatted with Meg a little bit and then got a picture with her and moved on. Then I stepped up…and totally froze. I sort of shoved my book at her with a terrified half smile. She gave me a giant smile and said “Oh is this for you?” I can’t remember my exact reaction but I think I sort of mumbled a yes. Then she handed me back my book and a sort of wandered away. I should have had a picture with her and I should have been able to say more then just yes, but what can you do I am afraid of people and she was someone that I basically worshiped for so long and to finally meet her, of course I froze. Next time she does a tour and comes anywhere near here I will meet her again and I will make a better impression and I will get her to sign my Jenny Carroll books because those are my favorites.
So that is the anticlimactic story of me meet Meg Cabot I’m glad I went and am still so excited that I actually met her and that she was a nice as I always imagined her to be. Plus I learned that I never want to freeze up when meeting an author again.
I don’t think I’m going to have a blog up tomorrow. I have a giant paper due on Friday which I have yet to start so I will probably be working on that all tomorrow unless it magically just flows from my fingers, which sounds like wishful thinking but I have had it happen before. Usually with blogs but it has happened for school. I don’t think that it will happen tomorrow since I hate this paper and we already had to turn in a first draft for it which he just put giant x’s through and said the whole thing was irrelevant so I’m not exactly feeling like trying really hard. But I will get it done and I will be as awesome as I can make it. I just don’t think that I will be able to blog tomorrow. Maybe I’ll just post my paper that way I won’t miss more days then I already have.

Beda April 13: Too Late

Sorry I know I keep promsing blogs that just aren't materializing. I swear they will...just not today. I put off writing until too late and then I was on the phone with my friend Laurie hearing about bitchface (aka that girl my brother dates) I guess she's been saying crap about me behind my back I don't know all of what she was saying but I do know that she was saying that I was a bitch when she moved into my house. Honestly who does this girl think she is? Anyway then Glee was on and I can't miss Glee I'm a little overexcited about Glee but I freaking love it so blogging takes a backseat. So now I have an hour to get a blog up and I need to go to bed otherwise I'll fall asleep in class tomorrow and while it is the best class to fall asleep in (It's dark and I sit in the back corner and the teacher always leaves while we watch the movie) but I need to pay attention so that I can write my last paper for this class. So that's the long way of saying that I won't have the blog I promised once again.


Oh yeah side note, does anyone else watch Glee? And did anyone see the Sue Sylvester Vogue video? I could not stop laughing through that whole thing...I think I'm going to have an issue with not cracking up next week. I mean Madonna episode and Emma being a virgin bedroom scenes on tv are weird enough do we need to add singing? That will make me giggle more so I guess that's better then being awkward because my mom is watching that with me.

Beda April 12: Maureen

Author's note: I planned on doing one whole blog with the different authors but I’m kinda bored with writing today and having trouble focusing so I’ve only gotten halfway through part two so what I’m going to do it stretch this out a little bit. So this is going to be a three parter. (Also I know I promised Meg Cabot today but while she’s first in the chronology of all of this she is second for story telling because she actually happened.)

Today I plan on writing the blog I set out to write. So with that said let me get into it.

I have had a few exiting things happen to me in my life. I’m going to talk about run-ins with authors. The first one I’m going to talk about probably never happened but it has a few things about it that make it possible. About two years ago Maureen Johnson had a contest for people 18 and under to win a trip to New York to meet her. She was also having a comment contest to win Suite Scarlett sleep masks. She spent weeks hyping this super awesome super secret thing that was going to be announced (as MJ will do) and then it was announced that the super secret thing was the New York thing which had I been under 18 at the time that would have been awesome. I wasn’t and that day on the blog comments I complained that I waited forever to be over 18 to be able to enter awesome contests like that and then after I turned 18 all of the best contests were for 18 and under. So the next day MJ announced sleep mask winners and I was on the list. I think this was because she felt bad for me, but I won and I almost never win anything so it was exciting. So I sent in my address and waited. Meanwhile I was following the John and Hank and found out that they would be having a nerdfighter gathering with MJ in Michigan. I wanted to go so bad but it was in Grand Rapids which is on the other side of the state and no way would I be able to get there. The day of the gathering arrived and I sat at home wishing I could be there. I can’t remember what caused me to go outside but that day I stepped onto my front porch and there in the mailbox was a small manila envelope with the sleep mask in it. Several hours later the mail arrived. After seeing the mail I looked at my MJ envelope again and noticed that it had no postage on it. Which is a little weird, the only explanation is that Hank, John, and Maureen all carpooled to the Grand Rapids and on the way they stopped at my house Hank and John waited in the car while MJ Ninja’d up to my mailbox to drop off my prize then they went tearing away giving them plenty of time to get to Grand Rapids. Unlikely yes but it could totally happen.

Beda April 11: Things I Don't Understand

I’m sorry but once again our regularly scheduled programming will have to be put on hold.
Normally I’m a pretty happy person, I try not to let things get to me, but yesterday after I blogged everything kind of went to crap and I need to vent about it so sorry but this is going to be a poor me blog.
We’ll start with item number one, this isn’t the one that sent me off into “What-is-wrong with-me-land” but it did make me pretty unhappy. It needs a bit of back story so I’ll start with that.
In late August or early September my brother got a girlfriend. Normally I would be thrilled for this. I was hoping that he would get someone. However I was not thrilled with who he picked. When Nicky and I went to Chicago every time we would sit down for a break or on the way home every rest stop we hit this girl would call and he spent most of his time talking to her. The thing is, at that time she wasn’t even going out with him, she had a different boyfriend. Several weeks later she was still calling and texting him every two seconds so I asked my brother why she wasn’t texting her own boyfriend and it came out that they were now going out. (How he could stand her clingyness to even want to go out with her in the first place I will never know.) Anyway it took forever for Nicky to even introduce us, and I’ll be honest I had opinions about her before meeting her, but I tried to be nice and to be open-minded, but she annoyed me. I met her and I had to do all the talking, she spent the whole time looking at her phone, and she giggled at everything (not like a normal that was funny giggle but at things like “Hi I’m Ellie.” “Hi I’m Katie (giggle)” she does it after just about every sentence it’s weird.
So by the time Halloween came around my brother had basically stopped telling anyone in the family anything (including when he would be home, if he came home at all) and he stayed most night’s at Katie’s house which I happen this think is a bit inappropriate. I’m not from the middle ages or anything like that but my brother is nineteen and he was trying to get a degree (that’s another part of the story that I’ll get into in a minute.) and they both still live with their parents. If nothing else it’s just rude to the parents not to at least have him sleep on the couch or vice versa. Anyway moving on, well actually to backtrack a little bit, at the end of September my Grandma died and we all had to pack up on short notice and drive to New Hampshire for her funeral (She lived in Michigan for a good chunk of her life and for at least the last forty years but my Granddad is buried there because that’s where the really old family plot is and it’s where that side of the family is from…also where he spent most of is time. I could explain that better but it’s not the point of the blog.) You would think that Katie would understand this and chill out for the two and a half days we would be gone. Nope. After the funeral service everyone went back to the house (it’s a house that my family has up there which was built by my great great grandfather and it gets passed down and all that right now it’s got five different owners when they go it will have seven. It’s sort of a giant mess but again not the point.) and after hanging out there for a bit Nick and I decided to go into town we could have sat around awkwardly with the rest of the family but my dad’s cousins were leaving and my sister was having a lovely time boring the crap out of everyone talking crazy computer code with one of my uncles and the other uncle just doesn’t like me (He’s a woman hater mostly, he got over that for my sister because she’s going to be an engineer but I hate math and science and he just doesn’t like me.) So Nicky and I headed into town we both wanted to get sweatshirts and Nicky like the nice guy he usually is wanted to get Katie one. Now the phone reception in New Hampshire sucks (Except surprisingly in the graveyard. I knew that from previous trips not because I was on the phone during the funeral.) but it came it pretty well in Portsmouth so Nicky and I we’re walking down the street and his phone practically explodes. He had 8 missed calls and 12 text messages all from Katie. (Keep in mind by this point it was only about 2 in the afternoon, and according to my dad who was sharing a room with him, Nicky had been on the phone with Katie pretty much non stop until we left for the funeral.) Katie had become convinced that Nicky was ignoring her and that he was going to break up with her. So we only had a short time before we had to be back for dinner and I had to spend most of that time listening to Nicky calm Katie down. After that we quick had to go and buy our sweatshirts and rush back to the house. Then jump back in the car and follow my uncle to dinner. I sat next to Nicky and the whole time we were there his phone would go off about every ten minutes. On the way back to the hotel she got even more pushy, his phone would ring and as soon as it stopped it would start again. I don’t know about anyone else but I would have broken up with her for that alone I mean we were at a funeral she could give him the one day to be with his family and not entirely focused on her.
Okay jumping forward again. In January I moved in with my mom because 1. I was going to school and 2. I had to get out of my dad’s house it’s a depressing place I wasn’t doing anything there and I was getting stuck in a cycle of depression that wasn’t helped by anything around me, (again different story) Shortly after I moved out Katie started talking about on her facebook that she was packing up for moving day. I called my dad and asked about this because some of her context clues where a little alarming. It turns out that Nicky had invited Katie to move into our basement. I told my mom about this and she called over there to say absolutely not could that happen, because that is technically her house, she told my dad that no way could this girl move in, only if she agreed to pay rent could they MAYBE talk about it. My brother hearing this took that to mean that if Katie paid rent then sure go ahead it’s no big deal and there he was living in my basement with his girlfriend, which is another thing. My mom not being financially able to say no to the rent money (which they have only paid one out of four months on) said that if Katie stayed Nicky had to stay upstairs in his own room. He just flat out ignored that. I wish my parents would stand up to him, I understand that my mom isn’t there and can’t do much to enforce her rules but seriously I wish my dad would stop being so afraid of Nicky (that’s again another long story and this is getting long enough.)
So that’s where we stand as of this last week. On Thursday Nicky brought Katie over to here to my mom’s house and we were all being polite out having dinner and Nicky mentions to me that Katie loves the show Friends and that I have the game Friends Scene It so Katie get all “Oh I would win.” And me knowing that she does not know more about this show then I do point out that no I would win so she says “We’ll see.” In that snotty voice of know it all teenagers. I don’t try to be obnoxious with my brain but I get really competitive about trivia (I know it’s stupid but I’m really good at pointless trivia and I don’t like people telling me that they know more then I do.) So yesterday I sent my brother to ask her a question about Friends and she didn’t know and honestly the way she was talking about her knowledge of the show made it sound like she would like trivia so I thought it could be kind of a fun back and forth thing because no one ever will play trivia games with me so I was a little excited about it. Later I texted her another question which if she knew half as much as she claimed to know should have been easy. She sent back with “I don’t know I haven’t watched the show in years besides I have better things to do then sit around watching TV.” That is what pissed me off, okay I wasn’t trying to be rude I was trying to bond with her even though I don’t like her over something that she claimed to know a lot about and also the last part of that response. Who does she think she is? Yes I watch TV but I also go to school, if I don’t have a ride I walk, I spent a good part of the semester getting there two hours early because that was when I could get a ride. I do my homework and get really good grades on it. She does nothing she doesn’t go to school, she is quitting yet another job (that’s three in four months) and she just sits around trying to give herself skin cancer in my backyard while my brother works two jobs and had to drop out of school to support her. So really where does she get off saying something like that? Then this morning as I sat down to write about this she sent me another text. It said something along the lines of “Sorry I didn’t mean to be mean last night but I really can’t stand know it alls, it reminds me of why I hated high school.” Um how is that an apology? It has the word sorry in it but it also calls me a know it all, which honestly I wasn’t trying to be. And what does high school have to do with anything? We all have reasons for hating high school. Some of us have to live with those reasons every day. Some of us can deal with those reasons like adults and not resort to being a bitch. (Sorry extreme but she is just so rude and ugh I don’t need to start that rant again.)
This brings me to part two of why I’m having a suck ass time. I am trying to find a job right now. It is sort of essential that I find one. I have about twenty dollars to my name right now and I have bills that I need to pay. I don’t have a lot of options here because for one thing no one is hiring and also I can’t work retail (seriously I tried and ended up having a nervous breakdown complete with sitting in the fetal position and hyperventilating, I cannot handle that again.) So I found this thing at school for a Disney internship and while I hate the Disney corporation (partly responsible for the breakdown) I would not say no to a job where I can leave the state for a bit, they pay over 8 bucks an hour, they provide housing and transportation, would let me either work in the back or in a position where I could take pictures all day, and would put me near the Harry Potter theme park. So I had to go to this seminar thing to even be able to apply, I went and the lady there was really positive about everything and made it sound like if you applied you would get the job (which I know is what they’re supposed to do Disney is supposed to be the world of hope) So I sat through that thing for an hour and got my code to fill out the application which had to be filled out within 48 hours of the seminar. I was really busy that week but I cleared some time and sat down to do the application, which asked me the same questions over and over again and took about an hour and a half, then they had what they called the online interview which is like a stupid personality test. That took forever and when I got to the end of it I got a message saying “thanks for your interest but you aren’t what we are looking for” which really bummed me out because yes I hate people but I can fake it with the best of them and it’s not like I said anything negative about anything on the application. It made it seem like they were just looking for specific answers and I wasn’t worth the time I would take to have an actual human look over my application.
The next thing I tried was getting a job in Park Safety at the Zoo which is pretty much just making sure that people have id badges if they want to into an employee area and telling people that there is no smoking on Zoo grounds. Having filled out many applications I have learned that I really hate online ones. I don’t think that people even really look at them that closely. So I got a paper application and took it in and handed it to the person I was told was in charge of accepting those. A few days later I got a call saying “I have your application on my desk here but I’m not really sure why.” Which confused me I thought that applications were a little self explanatory. The man I was talking to continued on to tell me that I needed to fill out the online application and that after I did that they would schedule me for an interview. So I called my mom at work and asked to borrow her computer because mine was dead and I accidentally left the power cord at my dad’s house and wouldn’t be able to get it for several days. I filled out the application, sent it in, and waited for my call. The call came in the form of a letter sent to the house saying “Thanks for interviewing put you’re not who we’re looking for.” I didn’t even get to interview.
The reason that I’m so bummed right now is that I again applied to the Zoo this time in Guest Relations which wouldn’t have been my favorite thing to do but I could have done it, I grew up at that zoo and know it like the back of my hand and as I said I can fake liking people who think that they are better then you just because they aren’t wearing a stupid uniform. This time I made sure to do the application online first, I heard nothing back and was getting a little sad about it so I asked my mom if she could ask her friend Stefan to put in a good word for me because he is a guest relations supervisor and I know him and we’ve hung out a little bit. So he did and all of a sudden I had an interview. So I freaked out about this interview forever, I was so nervous, I was seriously on the verge of getting sick or freaking out or something like that but I went to the interview smile plastered all over my face. I got there and there were four other people waiting for the same interview time and by the time we got into the interview room (45 minutes late) there were eight of us, two people didn’t show up. So then not only did I have to stand out I had to stand out of a mass. I wouldn’t be given the chance to have to singular focus of the interviewer. I did my best an I definitely did better then all of those people except for one who was just way more perky then I was. So I was feeling good and making plans for how I would pay off my credit card (I know cliché college debt but it’s not like I was going crazy buying stupid crap. I was buying food for me and my dad which he promised he would pay back and hasn’t/can’t yet) and how I would be able to afford to buy jeans that fit. Then I got home yesterday and there in the mail was a letter from the zoo. I didn’t need to open it because you only get the letter if you didn’t get the job. I opened it anyway. Thanks but no thanks.
I don’t understand what I did wrong and I don’t understand why people don’t like me. I would be good at whatever job they asked me to do and I would always try my best and I don’t understand why no one will ever give me a chance. Before you point out that I got that retail job that was only because my friend Catie worked there and the boss loved her and she bugged Becky everyday until she gave me the job. And yes I know that ended badly but no one else knows that and I would be in a totally different working environment and I did well when I worked at Fed Ex (again Catie got me the job) and that ended very well aside from the fact that I wasn’t ready to leave that job but I had to because it was only a temporary position.
It just sucks because I NEED a job and I don’t know what to do about it and I can’t afford food let alone anything else. And I’m so grateful to my mom for letting me stay with her and for paying for me but I want to be an adult and no one will let me grow up and yet most people look at me like I’m a lazy failure and I’m trying so hard and it’s not paying off. The point is I don’t get why people won’t even give me a chance. Please don’t say that it just wasn’t meant to be because I know I’ll hear that from my friends and that’s really not what I need to hear because I can’t see how being broke and depressed is meant to be.
Anyway I just needed to vent all of that. Sorry it’s so freaking long but thanks for reading all the way to the end…if you did that is. I promise I’ll do the Meg Cabot blog tomorrow.

Beda April 10:Coming Clean

Look at me all doing my blog before ten, I'm a little excited about this. Of course this means that I'm blowing something off but whatever.
I'm at my Dad's house today. It's his birthday which is why I was going to be over here anyway but I came over early becuase I've been trying to clean my room here for years like seriously. I have too much stuff from all the moving around that I've done. Plus I'm naturally a kind of messy person. What usually happens when I try to clean up in here is I get bored after ten minutes and all I've done is manage to put away about two things, throw away a lot of trash, (Not that my room is gross it's mainly like old papers or yarn wrappers, stuff like that.) and a good chunk of stuff is piled on my bed so then when I don't put anything away for the rest of the day I have to just put all the stuff piled up on my bed someplace else thus not actually getting anything done. Now I'm not sleeping here so I can pile stuff on my bed and it hopefully wont be a problem. The fact that I'm doing this now I think proves that my tendencies are still, I can't think of the word so I'll go with active. I got here at about ten this morning so the first thing I did was turn on my DVD player and watch Flight of the Conchords, I've heard good things about it and while it took me all of one episode to get into it I really like it, so then I went and looked up stuff about it for awhile because when I like things especially things that look indipendant like that I get a bit obsessive. Then I went and talked to my Dad for a bit, then I had a cup of coffee, then I watched the last episode of Flight of the Conchords (not the last last episode, I only have the one disk right now so it was the last episode on the first disk of the first season.) then it was about 2 then I started cleaning. I found out I hae about 6 missing cd's which is a little annoying although I think I might know where they are although I thought I took out all the cd's that weren't burned but I'll have to check when I get back to my mom's. That's one of the problems of living sort of in both places, whenever I need to check something or find something whatever it is is at the other house. One of my main reasons I wanted to clean up in here (aside from the fact that I can't find anything and organization is sort of important) is that I was missing a couple dvd's. I knew where they were but a couple months ago my dad knocked over one of my bookshelves which was super full of all sorts of things, it was one of my main storage units, but I lost a ton of stuff when that happend. I was putting off cleaning that up because when it fell it knocked a bunch of stuff under my bed so when I cleaned that out I found out that my bedframe is actually broken so I was waiting to put everything back together until it got fixed because I would just have to dismantle it all so my Dad would be able to get at my bed. (Yeah my room is really small and I have too much stuff so I have one bookcase pushed right up against my bed because I have no place else to put it. I need my own house.) Anyway that was kinds of a tangent my point was that I found the dvd's after about ten minutes and now I don't feel like cleaning anymore. As I've said I'm not that surprised. I think that maybe everytime I have time over here I'll just do a little bit and eventually it'll get done...of course that means by the time I'm done I'll be 30 and have my own house and won't have a bedroom at my parent's houses (I hope, I want to be a grown up.) and won't need to have cleaned up the room. But that isn't the point I usually manage to find at least one thing that I forgot I had when I clean so it's a little fun for that reason at least. This time I found a notebook, not one that I forgot I had but I didn't know I didn't know where it was. Although I was wondering if I lost it because I couldn't think of exactly where it is. That's one weird thing about me is I almost never know exactly where something is in my house but if I want something I can usually find it within 30 seconds. I don't know if that actually weird but everyone else I know who can't think of where something is they assume it's lost. Did that whole rant make any sense at all? I kind of stopped paying attention.
My blogs keep not being what I expected. Today I planned on writing about when I met John and Hank Green and Meg Cabot and my theory about Maureen Johnson but clearly that didn't happen. Um I'll try to get that one written tomorrow. I don't have much to do then except something for my anthropology class but that doesn't take that long. Okay clearly (at least clearly to me) I'm feeling ranty today because this explaination is starting to turn into a rant and I very nearly started ranting about doing home work, I really should say rambling rather than ranting but whatever.

Beda April 9: Distraction

Really I have to stop waiting until the last minute to write these blogs. (not that quarter to ten is the last minute but it’s the last minute just go with it) I always want to write out a really good blog about something maybe mildly important but no I wait until the last minute when I have several things I have to do before midnight. So sorry but you get yet another slightly crappy blog about what I did today.
Having said that I will now go off in a different direction.
Something that I have decided to try this year is for all the titles of my blogs I’m going to try to have the title be a title of a song from my iTunes. I know it’s kind of lame but I want to see if I can do it without repeating and still have the title make sense with the subject matter of the blog.
I just downloaded the Little White Lie soundtrack, I like it. Did anyone else watch that on youtube? (for some reason every time I try to type out youtube I type youtune it’s just one of the typos that I get suck with. Some words I cannot type correctly the first time, it’s weird.) The thing I really like about Little White Lie aside from the plot and all that is that it was filmed in Ann Arbor. My sister lives there and my one of my friends used to live there so anytime I go to see either of them I do a fair bit of walking around the city and I got to see a lot of places that I actually know down there so that’s pretty cool. I’m kind of mad at Casey because she knew about A Very Potter Musical when it was on stage there and she didn’t tell me about it. I could have seen it live if she would have thought to tell me. (I’ve complained about my sister before right?)
New subject again, whenever I go into the iTunes store I always check for the free stuff cause A. I’m poor and love free stuff and B. I’ve found some really cool things in there. Anyway today I went in there and they had a Glee sneak peek (I hate the phrase sneak peek, I don’t know what would be better I just don’t like it.) So I just watched it and I have one comment on it. Okay more then one comment but this first bit is observation on a bit that I am not thrilled about. It seems to me that anytime the whole group is singing in the choir room and someone tries to involve Kurt he gives them an “oh my god leave me alone I can’t believe that you would think I want to be involved in this” look and then he walks away into a corner but then whenever he’s in the background of a shot he’s singing just like everyone else. That sort of bugs me. But the rest of it oh my gosh I love it and I can’t (seriously CAN’T) wait until Glee comes back on. Every preview so far has made me feel like eleven year old me when I used to get so excited for new Hanson stuff (don’t judge me they got big when I was ten I was sort of their core demographic and I found out about them just as I was coming out from under the rock I grew up under so yes I love Hanson deal with it.) I sort of can’t believe how much I love Glee, I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised I mean it has everything I would want in a show, including singing and broadway stars. I guess what surprises me most is that they would make a show I like so much and other people like it too, a lot of my favorite shows either weren’t on long or no one ever heard of it or both. This isn’t true of all of my favorite shows especially with the internet people but still. I would be really surprised if anyone has ever heard of The Tribe, if you have you get twenty million points.
Um so yeah I didn’t even touch on what went on today aside from my iTunes activities but that’s fine it wasn’t that interesting anyway, well maybe the part where I was lost for a little while but I don’t feel like writing about it anymore so maybe I’ll talk about it later but if I can’t be bothered to care about it anymore I can’t imagine how boring it would be for someone who didn’t live it. Although maybe it would be more interesting for someone who wasn’t there because I could add in intrigue and mystery and an escaped tiger and no one would ever know that I was making it up…yes that would totally work, no one would question an escaped tiger, especially if it was friendly and let me ride it home. Totally believable.

Beda April 7: Nothing Much Happens

Today I skipped school. This makes me a little sad because never before in my life have I had perfect attendance and I’m about three weeks away from getting it this year. I guess I won’t be doing that this year. I will hopefully have it for my other classes and it’s not like it was in elementary school when you get a certificate or even recognition. It’s just something I want for myself. Oh well, maybe next semester. I skipped today because I didn’t have a ride and not a chance was I trying that walking thing again so I was planning on trying to ride the bike, however when I woke up it was thunder storming so my options were ride four miles in the rain and thunder and then have to sit through a three hour class that I hate while soaking wet, or stay home turn in my paper later acknowledge that I’m doing alright in the class and this session isn’t essential and go back to bed. So I made the decision to go back to bed.
When I finally did get up (I say finally but really it was only two hour later and I don’t think that 8:30 am is really a finally unless your talking about that being when you went to bed.) I figured that I would use this free time and work on my project for my Friday class then study for my two tests tomorrow then maybe get my blog written nice and early. So what did I actually do? I made monkey bread then got sucked into My Name is Earl. I think I watched more of that show then is healthy to watch at one go but I’ve never watched it before and it’s actually really good. Anyway as you can see I kind of wasted today and I don’t really have anything to talk about, well that’s a bit of a lie I do have a couple blogs I’m planning on doing but they all take more time then I have right now but just know that at some point I plan on talking about lists which hopefully will be more interesting then it sounds, I also plan on talking about music, my book obsession, television, movies, and my dog.

Beda April 6: Movies

Just now I was sitting here writing a paper on Soylent Green for my intro to film class (Stupidest class ever, the only reason I'm taking it is because I didn't want to pay to have my transcripts sent again, which is an annoying story so I won't get into that just know that it is the dumbest class and I now wish that I would have been able to just cough up the money to get out of it.) For this class all we have to do is write four reviews during the semester which should be ridiculously easy because he doesn’t care what we write about as long as we touch on five certain things and he doesn’t care how long the paper is, also he shows fifteen movies so we get plenty of movies to choose from. The trouble with this is that he shows fifteen movies thus giving me plenty of chances to blow off writing a paper because there are still a lot of chances. So I put off the writing to the last minute assuming that at some point he would show a movie that I didn’t hate and then I could write something positive about it. That strategy did sort of work, I waited and waited and then when I finally realized that we were running out of classes and I better get on with the review writing he showed the movie V for Vendetta which I sort of love so I managed to write a really nice review for it. Now he’s gone back to showing movies that I don’t care about and will never care about. We only have I think three more classes and I did have managed to do two and a half reviews (half because I just finished the one for Soylent Green but I haven’t actually turned it in.) but I still have to sit through the terrible movies.
This post is not going at all in the direction that I expected, does that ever happen to anyone else? (Random question, why does the grammar check on word always try to make me use semi colons?) Anyway I think I’ll just go with the subject at hand. It seems everyone who has ever taken a class from my film teacher agrees that he knows nothing about teaching and is probably one of the worst teachers on campus. He is very into his subject, he clearly loves movies but he knows nothing about teaching. I guess one semester all he did was show Alfred Hitchcock movies which I suppose could be informative but that’s really more an Intro to Hitchcock rather then an Intro to Film. This semester he’s showing all “futuristic” movies. I don’t count most of them as futuristic plus they are so insanely boring. I have to be honest, I don’t like old movies they just have so many issues with plot and cinematography and mostly they just look like messes to me so I don’t watch them if I can avoid them. (I will admit that there are some good ones I mean Wizard of Oz came out in 1939 I believe but give me Citizen Kane or Casablanca and I will pass. I have seen both of those movies and they are just boring.) As far as I can tell so far this semester we have only watched two movies made after 1985. I suppose that it is important for us to see the original versions of some of the movies that we are seeing but I don’t understand how a lot of these movies are really introducing us to film concepts.
The Following is a list of all of the movies we have watched so far:
2010
Planet of the Apes
The Time Machine
The Day the Earth Stood Still
War of the Worlds
Day After Tomorrow
V for Vendetta
Soylent Green
Blade Runner
The Thing From Another World

That is not in order or anything but just so you guys know I guess. We had to watch the original versions of all of these and mostly I was just bored or in the case of The Day After Tomorrow I was just terrified. (I have a fear of the earth turning against us and killing us all. The Happening also really freaks me out.) Something else I can’t quite figure out about this class is, he makes us watch these movies and then at the end of class when he gives his lecture, which I assume is supposed to tell us how the film relates to something we are supposed to be learning, he talks about either the director François Truffaut, Orson Wells, or the great deal you can get at the Redford Theater.
So yeah this class annoys me a lot but it’s only a couple more weeks and I’m done with it and hopefully I will never have to take another class with this teacher ever again.
Oh really quick, we had to watch Planet of the Apes and the only exposure I ever had to this movie before was in the movie Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. I must say I like Jay’s version of the movie much better then the actual movie. I kept hoping to see Jeff Anderson running around, or at the end I wanted Jay to show up and say the final line just like in Jay and Bob “Damn yous, damn yous all to hell.”

Beda April 5:Forgotten

I totally forgot to write anything today so um quick recap of the day. I got up and went to school. My mom is off work today so I had a ride. I went to class when it started there were only about seven people there so we all got extra credit for showing up on time. Then my professor went over our observation papers telling us all the mistakes that we had made, she seemed a bit annoyed about it but I can't really blame her she's having a tough semester what with people not showing up to class ever and in one of her other classes at Wayne State she had three cases of obvious plagerism, she's a really good teacher and I'm learning a lot so I don't understand why people are blowing her off like that. So anyway she handed back our papers and I got 100% I'm really excited about this because so far in her class I have never gotten anything less then that and with all the extra credit she gives up I have more than 100% in the class for the semester, I don't think I've had grades this good since before I started getting actual grades. Then class ended with 14 having shown up total, I think there are about 33 people registered for the class to the turnout was pitiful really. So then I went to the grocery store and got food cause a girl needs to eat, then I went home and sat around for a bit then my mom got home and we went for a bike ride which was MUCH better then the last time I tried it so I'll be trying to ride my bike to school on wednesday, hopefully I can do it. Then my mom went to dog class and I hung out with the other dogs and played Sims 2 on my computer because I love that game. Then my mom got home, and here we are. I need to go to sleep though because I still have school tomorrow and I can't sleep through that class.

Oh also I just want to say hi to Julia. I never get comments from readers except last year when we had Beda buddies but they all ditched me as soon as May started last year. I really appreciate your taking the time to read and comment. It means a lot. :)

Beda April 4: Creep

Today I want to do a little bit of complaining.
To begin with I should point out that I don't drive. It freaks me out I hate doing it. I have a driver's licence and I had a car until my brother wrecked it but I hate hate hate driving. This story is about my getting to school. Seeing as I don't drive and if I did I don't have a car I have to depend on other people to get me places, including school. Right now I am living with my mom so she has to drive me places a lot of the time, again including school. The problem with this is that for the first part of the semester she had to start work at 7 am, my classes start at nine am so the choice there is walk or get dropped off at quarter to seven. The school is four miles from my house, this walk is doable but not pleasant and not something I want to do first thing in the morning so I show up for school over two hours early every morning. This to put it nicely sucks, but I've gotten used to it. My new problem is that my mom's place of work has moved the opening time to an hour earlier so it opens to the public at nine instead of ten and she has to be there at six instead of seven. This part is the part that sucks the most for me. Technically the school doesn't even open until seven thirty but there part of it is under construction so they open the doors at about quarter to seven so the workers can get in which is usually when I sneak in. Now if my mom drops me off at the school before work I would be there at 5:45 which is far to early to be sitting in the dark waiting for the doors to be unlocked. So at first I thought I would ride my bike the four miles in the morning and probably home again in the afternoon, but when I did a test run my legs hurt so bad after only a few blocks and I had to quit. My mom did figure out that the bike is set up for 13 year old me which is why it killed my legs but I'm not sure that I can do that ride now and there isn't really a time when I can test it so that's a problem that I'm working on. So the decision that I went with which is the worst of all of the choices but it's the only one I have at the moment is to ride with my mom to her job and then walk from there. Like I said it's not the best plan, it's a bit scary to be walking around in the dark at prime rape hours. (Yes I remember weird scary statistics like that.) My mom only works about half a mile from the school so even with me walking as slow as humanly possible it still only takes maybe half an hour to get there and then the school is still locked. Okay that is the back story my main complaint is what happened on friday.
On friday I was walking down the street when I felt this sort of presence behind me so I turned around and there is this guy walking really quickly up behind me, this freaked me out because I was alone and had my computer in my backpack, which could do some damange if I hit him with it but I also need my computer so I would be screwed if he took it. I shoved on hand into my pocket grabbing my phone and preparing to call 911 if I had to. Just as I got across one street the guy caught up with me and while still one step behind me he happily said "Hi" I'm used to people doing this when I have to walk during the day, it's just polite, so I sort of turned my head and smiled at him wanting to be friendly but not encouraging, because hello six am on a dark street alone. I assumed that he would just keep walking and I really hoped that he would but instead he slowed down to my super snail pace and staying cheerful he said "I know you" which freaked me out because I definitely didn't know him so I looked at him a little quizically, he said "You go to OCC don't you? I see you there all the time." I said "yeah" although I was thinking yeah I go there, how have you seen me? Are you stalking me? Are you just like watching the school to see who comes and goes? Then he started asking me all sorts of questions "what's your major?" "Why did you pick that?" "What kind of photography do you want to get into?" "Is this your first semester here?" "did you go anywhere before this?" "Where do you go?" things like that, now if I were having that conversation at three in the afternoon while in a familiar location that would be one thing, weird coming from a stranger but not so creepy this was just weird at six am in the dark. Then out of nowhere he started talking about how he tutors math, which did explain about why he would be at the school during the day. He said that he worked at Wayne State and that the people he tutors there are all available in the middle of the night which is when he has to work there because I guess there is an overnight study thing, this sounds a little weird to me, well a lot weird actually but I would believe that a college would have a study lab open really late. He also said that he tutored at OCC and was looking to get a full time teaching job there, which is when he pointed out that he graduated college in 1984, which is two years before I was born, and that he was 47. Here's my huge question. If he has to work at Wayne State so late and then come over to OCC why doesn't he go home in the downtime? Also if he has to go between the two he clearly has a car so what is he doing walking down the street at six am? If for some reason he doesn't have a car and takes the bus again why is he walking down the street because I know that the bus stop is right across the street from the school.
The whole time I was talking to this guy I was really afraid, he was too interested in me and to free with giving out just enough personal facts then after we got to the school and found out that it was locked (which is when I found out that the doors are still locked then) he walked off into a residential area only to come back to sit outside the school a few mintues later. He didn't sit next to me thankfully but I just had a feeling that something wasn't right there.
At six fourty five one of the security guards came and unlocked the door and saw us sitting outside and then gave me a hard time for getting there so early because the school doesn't open until seven thirty. This I should point out is the same security guard that on my first day told me that it was okay to get there early I would just have to wait in the cafeteria until seven thirty before I could wander around the school (which was my plan anyway I always have a book with me so it's no big deal) but there she was giving me a hard time about it. It's not like I can get there any later. She let me and the guy in (by then he had told me his name was Chris) and we went down to the cafeteria and he kept on talking to me, this time about how the guard lady seemed really cranky today. When we got to the cafeteria I went to a corner that couldn't be blocked in (it's the corner of the room but it is also next to the archway that leads to the row of vending machines and also the main door) He went to a different corner and promptly fell asleep which is when I finally recognized him.
Just because I finally did recognize this guy doesn't mean that he wasn't creepy. I don't ever want to have to relive that experience again because it was scary and something still just doesn't feel right about this guy, I have seem him sleeping in the cafeteria before but never that early before. Maybe it was a one time thing, but maybe not. I'm not sure I want to risk running into anyone that early in the morning. Even if it is a safe city there are still a lot of dark alleys in downtown Royal Oak.