For the record I wrote this on sunday and because of internet issues I haven't been able to get this up until today.

Yesterday was one of the best days of my life. I got to see Hanson live and in person I finally got to go to another of their concerts and I got to go for a walk with them. Don't get me wrong there was a lot of annoying and boring, but it was freaking awesome.

Yesterday Saturday October 10 2009 started off slowly I woke up at my friend Laurie's house shockingly rested for having spent most of the night having to pee and sleeping on the floor. For a few minutes I lay there wondering if Laurie and my other friend Jennifer were awake and listening to Laurie's mother talking out in the main part of the house. My question was quickly answered when Laurie got up to talk to her mom. I sat up and chatted with Jennifer who at the point had also sat up to see what was going on and was ready to start the day. Laurie came back into the room and layed back down in her bed, Jennifer and I exchanged a look assuming that it was now time to get up and do things. Yes is was only about 11:00 am and we weren't supposed to be anywhere until 2 pm but still there was plenty out there for us to do, Laurie told us that she was going to go back to sleep and that we could leave without her and just come back and pick her up before the concert needless to say Jennifer and I were a bit shocked as we had been planning this since July and here Laurie was blowing us off. Our fears were short lived however, after maybe thirty seconds of Laurie trying to go back to sleep she started talking about how she needed to start getting up so that we could go. This brings us to our first boring bit, it took Jennifer and me about 10 minutes combined to get ready to go so we sat around and really didn't do much of anything while we waited for Laurie to get ready, she started at about 11:30 and we managed to walk out of the house by 1:15.

So we all got in the car and drove downtown to the Fillmore theater where there was already a fair amount of people. I don't know how much anyone really knows about this so let me take a second to explain exactly why we had to show up at 1:45 for a concert. For about the past year or so before every show Hanson and whoever is on tour with them will walk one mile for charity. Hanson does it barefoot for reasons that I don't exatly agree with but for everyone who shows up to walk with them and registers Hanson will donate a dollar to assorted things in Africa, they do let you pick where your dollar is going to go from a list of five or six different causes I can't remember all of them right now I know I asked them to put my dollar to AIDS reasearch and I was thinking of putting it to education but a lot of people had already put that I figured that was being covered and only one person before me on the sheet I was signing had put the AIDS thing so I put that with the thought that yes education is very important but how can you learn if you're dead? So anyway we got there and registered and were just sort of standing around taking pictures and whatnot when some bouncer dude started yelling at everyone to go and get back in line and he couldn't figure out why we had all moved up in front of the building and that we really needed to get back in line because nothing was going to heppen until we got back in line. So even though we were mildly annoyed that this dude was yelling at us (not just the three of us he was yelling at the few hundred people hanging out in front of the building.) we went and got in the line along the side of the building. Then after standing there for a bit the guy told us that the people in the front line were the ones that hadn't registered yet and that if we had already registered we needed to move back to the back line, so that's what a few of us did. Then we stood for what felt like forever at that time. On the bright side one of the opening acts happened to pull up right next to where we were standing so the bassist from Sherwood came and talked to the twenty or so of us from the back line so that was pretty cool. I've decided that that guy looks just like toddly00 from youtube. The walk was originally scheduled to start at 2 so at about 3 we noticed that they were letting people move back around to the front of the building where Hanson was standing in front of the group we couldn't see them from where we were at the back of the line because of that jerk bouncer telling us to move he put us in the worst spot ever but still we were closer to Hanson then we had ever been before and there was Taylor Hanson no more then 50 Yards from where we stood talking into a megaphone thanking everyone for coming out and saying the normal things a person would say before this sort of thing. While he was saying all of this I was standing right next to the same guy from Sherwood who talked to us earlier when he moved to get slightly out of the street of brushed up against my arm. (I know this sounds like something that a starstuck teenager would say but really I have loved Hanson since I was ten years old and really I may be from Detroit but that doesn't mean I see famous people like ever so this is huge for me.) After Taylor's speech we were off walking a circle around Comerica Park. Of course immediately we were almost dead last stuck behind a lady with a stroller. Normally I don't mind taking my time and waiting for people with stollers but when it comes to walking with a group they always tend to walk a lot faster then I do and I'm tired of always being last and losing the group so as soon as we could Laurie was off around the landy and several other people and we were making out way towards the front of the line. She was dead set on finding Taylor. When we managed to get about halfway up through the group Laurie was ahead of me by about ten feet or so, Jennifer was somwhere in between there. Not wanting to totally miss the walk just because of tunnel vision for a person that we probably would never get anywhere near I was trying to walk a bit slower while still keeping up with Laurie. This is what led to me noticing Isaac. I was walking and looking at the people around me and then I noticed this tighter circle just to my right, a girl stepped out of the way and walking about one person length from me was Isaac Hanson internally I was squealing like a little girl but outside I didn't want to come off as just another crazed fan and I was quickly losing Laurie so I sort of whisper yelled for Laurie. when she finally noticed that I was trying to get her attention she looked back and I was trying to subtlely point out that Isaac was about a foot and a half from me without actually yelling "Hey Laurie oh my god it's Isaac holy shit!" because something tells me that would have sounded a little crazy. So we walked next to Isaac for a bit. I wanted to get a picture with him but I couldn't get any closer to him then that foot and a half and any time I would try someone would step in a ask for a picture before I had the chance. Yes I probably could have managed to get that picture if I had tried harder but I'm not really the sort to push people out of the way I'm more wait until they aren't being bombarded with girls type which wasn't going to happen but still it was cool. After that we were back off to moving up in the group we almost caught up with Taylor we were about 30 feet away but then he turned the corner and disappeared again. That was about when they stopped in a fountain to talk a bit more about why there were doing this and everything which as I mentioned I don't exactly agree with. Here is the video that I got I missed a bit of it because my batteries died and then my camera will only record for a couple minutes at a time but I think you get the gist of it:


After that we started walking back to the Fillmore, There was a puddle on one corner which Isaac was thoughtfully standing in front of blocking off so people wouldn't step in it which is what caused me to be about six inches or less away from him I must say that he has grown into his looks and is a now a really good looking dude. The walk ended shortly after that and thus began the most boring and slightly annoying part of the day. It was about 3:30 when the walk ended and that meant we had to go line up to get into the show which the doors didn't even open until 6. Sure I suppose that we could have not waited in line but that would have meant that first we would have had to move the car which would have sucked because it cost ten dollars for parking and I really didn't want to have to pay that again and if we just wanted to walk somewhere there wasn't really anyplace to go we could have gone to subway but for one Jennifer really doesn't like subway and two the people around us were all coming back and telling us that they didn't have any actual bread just flat breat or pizza and none of us really wanted that so we sat in line and this time we had a relatively decent spot. All that sitting though did get old because it was sitting on the cement in downtown Detroit with homeless people coming up and asking for money every few minutes before being chased away by security guys also it was cold and the longer we sat there the colder it got and finally it was really annoying because we were stuck in line behind these girls who were still in high school and thought that they were smarter then everyone and better then everyone and kept spouting off idiotic things. They did have one friend that was nice though. The idiot girls at one point went off to get food while the other one waited in line to save their spot and that girl was pretty cool she was crazy outgoing and would talk to anyone, she was constantly flirting with pretty much any boy who walked past and she was sort of exactly like what I would picture a real manic pixie dream girl would be like. She didn't seem to really be friends with the idiot girls but more of an aquaintance and she was there with a girl that was a bit older then me and was also really cool who we chatted with for a bit after the idiot girls came back the older one was a hardcore Hanson fan. I thought I was bad she was worse. The manic pixie dream girl had never seen Hanson before as she was only three during their first tour which made me feel incredibly old because at that time I was 11. So anyway we sat and waited and waited and waited and stood up because our butts were getting sore and waited and waited and waited and chatted a bit and waited and finally they opened the doors at about 6:15 we walked in and there was sort of a multi tier floor and a balcony. The first tier of course was already starting to get crowded so we went to the second tier and managed to get a spot at the very front there which put us higher then everyone on the main part of the floor but still only about 100 yards away from the stage. We were standing to a group of girls who were really cool and again were bigger fans then I thought I was they had been following Hanson around on tour which I so wish I had the money to do because I would do it in a heartbeat but they told us that they would watch out for us if we would watch of for them meaning that if someone had to go to the bathroom or to the merch table we would work together to save their spot and we wouldn't start trying to edge the other ones out. They also apologized in advance in case they got obnoxious during the concert because they were also big fans of the first two opening acts. For the record they didn't get obnoxious I thought they were awesome they sang and cheered but not in an annoying way and they even had dances for some on the songs which I found to be adorable. By 6:30 Sherwood was onstage and they were awesome they all came out in a line and put on their instruments and before playing the first notes they quickly threw blow up black and white beach balls into the crowd and started it was much cooler then I make that part sound really I think you just had to be there for that part but it was cool. At first I thought maybe I just liked them because I had met the one guy and thought he was really cool but byt the end of the first song I knew that wasn't the case they were just really good. After Sherwood was Steel Train which was okay but got a little eh after awhile and totally lost me after they played Mama Mia because the fastest way to loose me is to force me to listen to Abba. After that was Hello Goodbye which I knew I had heard of before but I just wasn't sure where and the more they played the more I had no idea how I knew them. Then they played Here in your arms and I knew, I had never heard Hello Goodbye before what I knew was the song Here in your Car by Ministry of Magic thus solidifying my position in Harry Potter nerdiness, the Hello Goodbye version isn't bad but I think I like the MoM verson better. Then finally after the three opening acts and a half hour wait until 9:30 Hanson came out and proved why I love them. They were freaking amazing they did old stuff and new stuff they had some acoustic things and had Zac sing a song while playing Piano which was so cute because they had just finished doing their acoustic stuff and Taylor said "Okay we're going to go offstage for a bit because Zac Hanson needs to get up" Then Zac looks so nervous and walked over to the piano and took a second to start with an adorable and embarassed "thank you" after a couple girls yelled for him but he started and got into it and was awesome. Then the other guys came back out and they played some more. They managed to cover almost all of my favorite songs (by cover I mean play not that they spent all night doing covers although they did play two) They had a good My Girl cover and after leaving the stage like they were done for the night while obviosly not being done they came back out Isaac picked up his guitar and Taylor went in back and got beind Zac's drum kit and Zac came up front and grabbed a mic saying that the next song they were going to play because it meant something to Detroit or something like that alhtough I think that they play this song every night and really it's not so much a Detroit song but they started playing Don't Stop Believing and it was amazing Zac is the perfect person to sing this song they had heart and soul and energy for this song. At one point some guy started crowd surfing and Zac motioned for the crowd to send him to the stage but he sort of stalled a foot away and had no way to get down so Zac waded into the crowd with girls grabbing at him and while still trying to sing (and succeeding fabulously) and wrapped one arm around the guy's chest and pulled him on stage while still managing to keep time and sing. I have to say that Zac has fabulous arms normally I don't care about arms of muscles but I love Zac and that performance solidified my fan love for him. After that the concert ended and my whole experience was amazing and was truly one of the best night's of my life and I will absolutly being going to see Hanson any and every chance I get.

p.s. I forgot to explain why I don't agree with Taylor entirely. The shortish version is really I have shoes so why should I walk a mile without them if I don't have to? How is my taking my shoes off helping anyone really? It would hlf more maybe if I took the shoes off and then sent them to a kid in Africa that may help. It's like if I were starving I wouldn't want people to starve themselves to show solidarity I would prefer that they get me food or if they really wanted to give up food then they could give it to me so I could eat. I think that actions are better then symbols. That's not to day that Hanson isn't doing their part because they really are everyone who walked they donated a dollar for and they're getting the word out about how people can make a change. It's just the shoe thing I don't get. Oh yeah that reminded about my other issue. Walking with my shoes off in downtown Detroit is stupid. That is just asking to get tetnus or hep c or something and I can't afford those medical bills and I don't think that Hanson is going to pay for them so it's just safer to keep the shoes on and then donate the money I save by not getting an infection.

p.p.s. Since I'm so behind on getting this up it gave me a chance to go through all the pictures I took while on the walk so here are a couple of my Hanson pictures:

This is just a picture I liked of me Jennifer and Laurie before the whole thing. Laurie is the on with her tounge out and Jennifer is the one in back.
Taylor Hanson live and in the flesh.

This is the best picture I could get of Isaac but it doesn't show how close I really was to him.

Okay this is my favorite of all of them because you see Zac there with a camera. I have photographic proof that while Zac Hanson may not know who I am but he knows I exist. Man he's pretty. Sorry I have love.

Hayley G's Book meme

Just a quick thing here that I put way to much thought and effort into but still it's a different sort of meme then the what's your favorite color variety so it was worth it.

1. What author do you own the most books by?
Either Meg Cabot or Caroline B. Cooney (They're too spread out around the house to try and count them all right now.)

2. What book do you own the most copies of?
I think it's a tie between Freak the Mighy and Max the Mighty because I had copies then I lost them so I bought new ones and then I think my dad has a couple copies each somewhere in the house. Plus I inherited copies from my Granddad when he died.

3. Did it bother you that both those questions ended with prepositions?
Not in the least.

4. What fictional character are you secretly in love with?
eh not a secret really although I don't think anyone's ever bothered to ask before. Jesse from the Mediator series by Meg Cabot, Fred and George Weasley although more Fred becuase I think he had more personality, Lani Garver from the book "What Happened to Lani Garver" because I have a thing for androgony, Jarrod from "Old Magic" by Marrianne Curley (yeah there are some movie fictional characters too but I'm sticking to the paper variety)

5. What book have you read the most times in your life (excluding picture books read to children; i.e., Goodnight Moon does not count)?
Probably Old Magic by Marianne Curley, I don't know why I love that book so much but I do.

6. What was your favorite book when you were ten years old?
Any book by Caroline Keene a.k.a. any Nancy Drew book I LOVED them, I think at the time my favorite one was number 13. I can't remember what that one's called but I know it has something to do with an elephant and an indian circus type boy.

7. What is the worst book you've read in the past year?
Either a book called "Imaginary Enemy" by Julie Gonzalez or "Unlocking the Doors" by Nicole Liuken both were random pick ups and both were not good, one was really stupid and the other could have been good if it wasn't predictable and badly written.

8. What is the best book you've read in the past year?
Oh man you can't ask me to pick just one I've read a lot of good books in the past year like for example I read Old Magic and as I've already mentioned I love that book. (The rest of the list is just in the order I read them not in the order I liked them but I can't decide on just one book sorry.) (Oh yeah also my memory isn't really that good I've just been keeping track of how many books I've read in the past year.)So Lets see I also really really liked Paper Towns which obviously I loved, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer, The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman, Larry and the Meaning of life by Janet Tashjian, Who Killed Amanda Palmer by Neil Gaiman and Amanda Palmer (I know that's a coffee table book technically but it's a really good book), also I'm rereading the Harry Potter books right now and as we all know those are awesome.

9. If you could force everyone you tagged to read one book, what would it be?
I wouldn't because when someone is forced to read a book chances are they won't like it. I know I wouldn't like it just on principal and I wouldn't want people to hate something that I love.

10. What book would you most like to see made into a movie?
Wicked by Gregory Maguire but I want it to end like the musical becuase I hate unhappy endings and the director has to be on their game becuase I don't want to see books torn apart and ruined because hollywood couldn't leave well enough alone. (Seriously hollywood why change plot points or character traits just for the sake of change? I will never understand this. I know things have to change to fit the medium, I get that, I too went to film school the things I'm talking about are arbitrary and silly things to change but they mean a lot to the people who will be paying at the box office and I don't understand why you insist on alienating them.) (Have I mentioned that I have strong opinions on that and eventually will get around to doing a full post on that soon enough.)

11. What book would you least like to see made into a movie?
I don't know. I love the idea of having something of my favorite books that I can watch anytime I want to with actual people filling the images that would otherwise be trapped in my head and also allows me to do other things so I'm not just sitting reading all the time. On the other hand I hate the idea of hollywood crapping on something that is so important to me.

12. Describe your weirdest dream involving a writer, book, or literary character.
I don't know. I know I had something with John Green in it at least once and Harry Potter and Twilight tend to get in there sometimes I think but I don't often remember my dreams and even then when I do unless they were really weird or I wrote them down somewhere I tend to forget them after about a day. The only one I can remember right now had a bunch of people who may or may not have been people I "know" but I can't remember, my ex boyfriend Adam, and Bill Paxton in it. Obviously no one there is literary unless some one in the bunch of people was but like I said I don't remember.

13. What is the most lowbrow book you've read as an adult?
lowbrow? I don't quite understand that. The only books I really count as lowbrow are romances and I don't read those. everything else I think is totally valid. Actually I think all books are valid for the people reading them. Like I don't read Anime or Manga or whatever but they still take time and effort to read so they are just as valid as The Great Gatsby or Pride and Prejudice. What I think I mean to say there was that I don't thik anything I've read is lowbrow because I don't think there are actually lowbrow books because it's a matter of perspective...did that make sense?

14. What is the most difficult book you've ever read?
Again hard question mainly because I think I'n putting too much thought into this, but if you want the obvious answer I'll go with Hear of Darkness because 1 it was boring and 2 I didn't understand it. Let me point out I fully have the capabilities of understanding it I just didn't bother to try, I was being forced to read it in high school and I didn't like the teacher because she kept making us compare EVERYTHING we read to the current political situations (in 2003/4) and like I said earlier I don't like it when I'm forced to read things. so I read the words but I never bothered to properly process them besides that's hard to do while also trying to figure out what "The horror the horror" has to do with the 2004 preliminary election.

15. What is the most obscure Shakespeare play you've seen?
I've barely seen a Shakespeare play performed let alone an obscure one.

16. Do you prefer the French or the Russians?
French, I've had enough experience with the Russians to learn to avoid them if I can.

17. Roth or Updike?
I don't know, I've read a lot but not much that people would consider worthwhile. I've been meaning to do more "grown up reading" but I read more for fun then anything else so forgive me if it takes me awhile to get around to the heavier stuff.

18. David Sedaris or Dave Eggers?
Again not there yet. Let me finish Harry Potter and the other books I have lined up. Then I plan or reading Oscar Wilde then maybe I'll get to it. Give me time and be glad I've heard of these people.

19. Shakespeare, Milton, or Chaucer?
Shakespeare. I've liked him since before I knew who he was at the age of 5 so I'm not counting that as a cop out I'm counting it as dedication.

20. Austen or Eliot?
Um neither, sorry.

21. What is the biggest or most embarrassing gap in your reading?
I haven't read a lot of the "grown up" books that everyone else has read. The one I get the most crap for is I've never read 1984 which I guess is one of those high school requirements or whatever but I never had to read it and when I tried I fell asleep, on several different attempts. I'm pretty well read in young adult novels but people don't tend to put a lot of stock into those so they think I don't read. I need to catch up so that I can go back to reading what I want but still be able to discuss the more societally acceptable books for a person of my age to have read.

22. What is your favorite novel?
Old Magic by Marianne Curley or Framed in Fire by David Patneaude

23. Play?
Romeo and Juliet (see my Shakespeare answer for explination.)

24. Poem?
Not really into poems sorry.

25. Essay?
Do blogs count for that?

26. Work of nonfiction?
I've only recently started reading biographies so my knowledge here is limited to books about Kevin Smith, Carrie Fisher, Anthony Rapp, or a few other people but they aren't as worth mentioning.

27. Who is your favorite writer?
You can't ask me that. It's like asking me to pick my favorite book and as we saw I couldn't even pick a favorite from the past year.

28. Who is the most overrated writer alive today?
Dan Brown. I don't get all the Hype about the DaVinci Code and whatnot the movie was alright sort of like the non disney version of National Treasure. I haven't bothered with the book yet...maybe one day when I'm really bored.

29. What is your desert island book?
Old Magic or Framed in Fire by David Patneaude (you have no idea how hard it is not to put down a list of about fifty books.)

30. And... what are you reading right now?
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. I'm rereading the whole series at the moment. After that I'm going to read Evolutions Darling by Scott westerfeld becuase the library found it for me a lot quicker then I thought they would and now it's due back relatively soon.

Cookies, books, and a puppy

Okay I know this is supposed to be my Harry Potter post but that is turning into something much bigger so it will take more time (there's like lists and whatnot involved) So in the meantime you get a mini rant about food.

Today I bought one of those Betty Crocker Warm Delight thingies and while it was warm I did not find it to be particularly delightful. Ususally that is one of those things that looks good but I don't ever waste my money on it (because I have much more important things to waste my money on...like books or dvd's or music or vegetarian bacon.) but today it was on sale and I was hungry so I bought it. Now when these were first introduced I was lead to believe that this was a thing that came pre prepared, all you had to do was toss it into the microwave for a few seconds and you would be good to go the other thing is that not only the commercial implied but the box showed a picture of this full bowl of cookie. Yeah neither of those things were true, first surprise is that you open up the box and there is the bowl with a little packet of cookie mix (cause I got the cookie one rather then the brownie one becuase in general I like squishy cookies better then brownies not that I don't like brownies I just like cookies better) and a packet of fudge and yes if I had read the box I would have been aware of the fact that you have to mix it yourself but it was an impulse purchase based on false advertising not something I actually thought about so while mildly annoyed that I had to put in extra effort in my efforts to get fatter I added the water to the mix and very quickly realized that not only had I been misled about the preparedness of the cookie but also about the size so here I am with this moderate size bowl and this thin layer of cookie mix on the bottom of it which got me a bit more annoyed with the Betty Crocker people I know they are trying to trick people into buying this thing and that all prepackaged food is less then it looks (the huge potato chip bags that are half empty when you open them. Anything frozen.) but seriously you just don't need to waste all that plastic cut the size (of the container not the product) and the price call it mini and I'll bet anything that the sales go up. So anyway I took my weird regular cookie size cookie like product and tasted it, (I need to mention that I love cookies especially when they are still all gooey and slightly undercooked and yes I know that's bad for me but that doesn't make it any less delicious) it tasted kind of like those weird cookie dough bites that you know are in no way related to cookie dough and taste like it and it's just not at all what you want, and severly undercooked cookie while still being solid. It was not good, the fudge they give you to put in top made it better but I think that was mainly because it was masking the weird taste, it wasn't really bad it's just not something that I would buy ever or would really want to eat. I think next time I'll just bake cookies and save my money. Overall Betty Crocker has lost a good bit of my respect which I think it sad, they should stick to cookbooks not making weird ass cookie things.

On a totally unrelated topic I've been working on organizing my bookshelves mainly because they were so disorganized that I could never find anything and all of my books were just sort or haphazardly stacked on the shelves. I have now learned that you can fit a lot more books on the self haphazardly then you can when they are organized.

The shelves originally all looked a bit more like the top shelf. Also ignore the plastic bags they're part of a project I'm working on. And I do have more Harry Potter books then just the three up there but they're on the shelf you can kind of see to the right there.

I now have no home for about 2/3 of my books, plus I displaced a whole shelf of dvds (yes I have a lot of dvds mainly because I can (or could) still afford those seening as how the five dollar dvd rack exists and there isn't really a five dollar book rack)

See you can fit way more there when they're not really in any sort of order.

but that just made me realize that I also have no home for my dvds as that rack is also more then full. I need to move out and stop trying to fit an apartments worth of stuff into my tiny bedroom, not that I have anything against small bedrooms, when I was in the aparetment I have a relatively big room and all the space freaked me out it's just that I want to have enough room to fit my stuff in in an organized way. So it doesn't look like I'm the biggest packrat ever. I realize no one really needed to see some of my shelves but I think it helps prove my point.

Also just so this isn't just a rant wrapped in annoying. My mom got a puppy a couple months ago so here are a couple pictures of Echo:

Echo, she's a Springer Spaniel
My mom, (She doesn't have a weird growth on her back there I'm pretty sure that's he phone), Dude (The Golden Retriever) Echo (The puppy obviously) and Crash (the Greyhound)

Oh and have a flower picture because while I was looking for the Echo pictures this jumped out and was yelling at my to put it on my blog.

The last what...month?

So I guess a fair amount of stuff has happened since my last post. I know I mentioned a while ago that I would be taking a photography class which I did and it was awesome. I didn't exactly learn anything new. Like I knew what the aperture was and about three point lighting and all of that, but it was nice to get some actual feedback from someone other than my mom. Here are some of my favorite pictures I took duing the class:

and these two I took about three years ago but I'm still really proud of them and my teacher picked them as some of his favorites:

Last sunday I went to this film indusrty expo thingy which was supposed to have a bunch of job opprotunities and all of that which would have been helpful because I did go to film school and with the tax incentive for the film industry in Michigan it seemed like an obvious thing to attend. It turned out to be a total waste of time they has all sorts of schools advertising there which seemed kinda dumb to me because if I wanted to go to school I would have gone to a college fair, then they had a bunch of radio stations advertising there which I really didn't understand at all. Finally they had a couple film related things there but when I went to talk to them they were more like "yeah here is what we do and what we can do for YOUR film no we have a full staff we're not hiring but if you want you can HIRE US." Again why were they there? I know people keep telling me that film is a good thing to be in in Michigan right now because of this whole tax incentive thing and that people think I'm lazy because I don't have a job yet but really NO ONE is hiring this thing didn't really create more jobs in Michigan it just made it so that the people who are already working in film don't have to get second jobs to support themselves. So I think I'm going to keep doing film as a hobby and hope that I can find a way to get in but try to find something that will actually pay me, it's disappointing because I was a huge supporter of if you love it find a way to do it no matter what but I just can't live that right now with the way things are going in my life.

On a happier note Jessica's birthday was on Sunday to for her birthday I got her tickets to see Green Day on Tuesday. That show was AWESOME!!!!! I love love love Green Day and have seen them every time they have come to Detroit since I was fifteen and they have never once been bad or even disappointing. There was one part a found a bit lame but it was more then made up for by the rest of the show. If anyone has ever seen Green Day perform they know that Billie Joe always pulls people from the crowd to play with them which he did a couple times the first time he did it was not cool instead of having the people play the instruments while he sings he had these people sing which just felt like a bad game of karaoke revolution the guy he pulled up first while his voice wasn't terrible his timing was atrocious, when he messed up bad enough Billie Joe kicked him off the stage and pulled up a girl who was litterally the worst singer ever in the history of the universe her timing was WAY off, she was almost definitely tone deaf, nad she was totally unsure of herself. She barely made it through the last couple phrases of the song (which was longview by the way) then finished by shouting Detroit? into the mic. The next guy Billie Joe pulled up onto the stage was much better He had this guy play guitar for Jesus of Suburbia and that guy rocked. The show was awesome Billie Joe talked a lot but not in the annoying way some performers do he got a lot of audience participation having the crowd sing most of Boulevard of Broken Dreams or just asking everyone to make sex noises which got more weird cheering then anything else but was still amusing nonetheless. After leaving the stage having done a full set usually Billie Joe will come back out a do a really simple version of Time of Your Life this time they did their whole set then came back out and did another full set then left again then Billie Joe came back out again and did Macy's Day Parade and Time of Your Life. This show was awesome and I'm so happy that Green Day is still Green Day and that their new stuff totally lives up to everything I would expect from them.

I have a lot I want to say about the Harry Potter movie but I think I've written a long enough post here so I'll post my comments on that soon.

Minor Freak Out

I'm totally frustrated with my life right now. I don't have a job, I don't have a boyfriend, I don't have a life really. I want a job most of all right now the rest I think would follow. Trouble is I have no real skills at least not anything marketable and I have a serious social anxiety problem which keeps me out of most jobs. I want something where I could just sit on an office and file or something like that where I don't have to deal with people really and can just do my own things and be able to do the stuff I love after work. I know the dream is supposed to be that find what you love and then find a way to get paid for it but I don't think anyone is going to pay me to watch movies or read books, they may pay me to take pictures but trouble with that is while I may think that I'm decent no one else seems to and there are plenty of people who are better than me and more able to talk themselves up so they get the jobs. Seriously I don't think it's really asking a lot to get the job that really as far as I can tell no one wants but I don't even know how to go about getting that sort of job. I know how to fill out applications for retail stores online but I can't do retail as it is I can't even get anyone to call me in for an interview. I've all but given up. Which leads to other problems in that I can't live on no income, my parents have been good in letting me be so far but I know that won't last forever and I really don't want it to cause oh my god do I want to move out of this house. If I have to live here much longer I mught just actually decide that the streets are better. I'm sick of liveing with my Dad, I don't want to go into all of the details of why I hate it here so much but the main bits are that he lives like he's the only one here and he's still got me and my brother at home, he's teaching my brother that being gross and leaving the house the way he does is okay and that's it's okay to talk down to me, he calls me fat when he weighs at least twice what I do, he doesn't have a job and hasn't looked at all in two years, he never had a job when I was growing up until I was fourteen, and when I ask for any sort of help in getting my life together (which lets face it I have no idea how to do since my role model is him) he just gets annoyed and goes back to watching law and order, or he doesn't even acknowledge that I've spoken, not like he's ignoring me but that he is just becoming more and more unaware that there are other people in this house who may have something to say and he doesn't even hear us. I'm seriously considering moving in with my mom. She too has her faults but they aren't as bad as my dad's. I just don't know if I want to spend all day sitting around at her house waiting for something to happen, she works all day and then gets home and like most people doesn't really want to do anything which would mean more sitting around for me, plus she goes to bed super early and I stay up super late (literally sometimes she's getting up when I go to bed) Gah I just don't know what to do with my life, I don't know what I want and I don't know how to get it and I wish that someone would step up and tell me how to be an adult because I'm not doing so well with figuring it out for myself. Don't get me wrong I know some people would say that you're just supposed to suck it up and do what you have to do to get by, but I tried that and I ended up hyperventillating in the corner of my bedroom while my dad yelled at me that there were people counting on me. (Which they weren't all I ever got was busy work while my boss would go into her office and whisper and the assistant manager would make me do things that I had heard she only made you do right before she fired you. Also I was fully aware that freaking out and not being able to function is counter productive but there is no call to yell at a person for that. You can't help it if you can't breathe properly) I never really got to a proper point there but I don't care I'm having issues today and I need to vent somehow cause obviously I'm being ignored here.

Photograntland

Um, hi, I'm not so good with the blog most every day may thing but whatever I'm here now. Today was my second photography class it was good, a little boring honestly but that's because this is mostly a beginner class and I'm not a beginner. It was all about f-stops and shutter speeds and iso which I already know mostly. I say mostly because I learned it for film (like motion picture not still) and this is a tiny bit different but still it's stuff I mostly know. I'm looking forward to later classes because it will be more creative and we'll be getting more feedback and whatnot, I really like my teacher, he's really laid back and will joke around with us and actually teach not just lecture at us (I'm sure everyone has had that teacher) also he doesn't look at me like I'm the special kid in class which a lot a my teachers have done, specifically when I was in film school although I think that was partly because I said I liked Kevin Smith films and Hedwig and the Angry Inch was one of my favorite movies oh and that I HATED the movie Seven but the two main teachers there I had the problem with LOVED David Fincher so they're of course going to be upset when they assign a paper to watch Seven and then write about why it works and I write the paper saying that I don't think it works at all and totally tear it apart. They also had no respect for Kevin Smith movies I guess because they are comedies and all good movies need to be dramas or something. What can I say if I'm going to watch a movie over and over again I want one that's going to entertain me and make me laugh even if I watch it every day for two weeks straight (which I did do with Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back)not something that has blood and guts and killing and it rains every day except the one day the main characters need to be in the desert to get a severed head and some other stuff needs to happen in the sunlight, or a movie with Brad Pitt ( I despise Brad Pitt). Wow sorry just realized the major rant that just happened my point being this teacher doesn't automatically dismiss me just because I'm a girl who likes Kevin Smith movies.

On a different subject entirely I've been reading Johnny Durham's blog and thinking about the british (is it capitalized there?) in general and I WANT TO MOVE TO ENGLAND!!!!!!!! That's all I have on that without going into another giantly boring rant.

Later

Contentedness

Do you ever get a feeling of such contentedness that you don't want to do anything for fear of losing that feeling? I have that right now. I like it. The trouble is soon I'm going to have to come back to the real world and that is going to suck. For the moment I can just be and enjoy this feeling because I haven't been happy like this since I can't remember when, I want to say beginning of college maybe. I wish I could live in the moment forever, I know people wish that all the time and people chase that feeling too but that's not me. The more I chase this feeling the farther (further?) it seems. Soon I'm going to have to pick something to do and I know that won't help this feeling. I'll just go back to being regular Ellie. I could try to just sit forever and enjoy this but in a few minutes I would get bored and again I would get lost. This is really nice I feel like I have a purpose and that everything will work out, I know it won't and sitting around isn't going to help matters but I feel like if I sit things will be okay for just another minute longer. I know I sound high or something but I swear I don't do drugs and I haven't been drinking it's just a random alignment of the universe and I love it.

Last of the Beda

I'm doing this early because I don't want to be stuck at 10 to 12 tomorrow night going "oh my god holy crap I haven't though of anything to post about holy crap what am I going to talk about in this blog it's the last blog of the month who knows if people are going to follow you after today so make this one count oh crap now I have four minutes to post holy crap I know talk about what you watched last night oh wait you did that already and that post sort of blew" because that wouldn't be fun...for anyone. So hopefully I get something interesting here. For the record I plan to continue to blog after this, I don't know if I'll be cross posting onto the ning so my blog is here: http://randomnesssomething.blogspot.com/



Johnny Durham did another meme that has me interested so I'm going to do that. He really does have the best memes I don't know where he finds them. I keep telling myself that I'm not going to do any more meme's because, well I don't know why exactly but just because then Johnny hands out a new meme and here we are again so I'm sorry but I have to do it.

DIRECTIONS:


- Go to Google image search.

- Type in your answer to each question.

- Choose a picture from the first page.

- Use this website (http://bighugelabs.com/flickr/mosaic.php) to make your collage.


QUESTIONS:
1. What is your name?

2. What is your favorite food?

3. What is your hometown?

4. What is your favorite color?

5. What is your favorite movie?

6. What is your favorite drink?

7. What is your dream vacation?

8. What is your favorite dessert?

9. What is one word to describe yourself?

10. How are you feeling right now?

11. What do you love most in the world?

12. What do you want to be when you grow up?


Interestingly in looking for a hometown picture I found a picture of a girl I went to high school withno real reason why there's just a picture of her but whatever. I also found a band picture that has my sister in it, that one makes a bit more sense but still interesting...to me at least.


I think I put too much effort into that...oh well.


I just checked youtube for the first time today which is strange because normally I would have done it about five hours ago, did I mention it's five in the morning right now? Anyway I checked it and there is the first episode of Australia's Next Top Model in my subscription box which I'm very sad about because I can't watch it right now because I'm sure Jessica is going to call me at 12 wanting to go do something and while that might be a perfectly reasonable time for her. I do not care for it because 1 it's five and I'm not going to bed for a little bit still and 2 she made me go and hang out with her today even though I had things I needed to do and haven't fully recovered from being sick (This morning I felt like I had a hangover except there was no drinking going on last night. Boo alcohol free hangover) so yes back to my point models bug me they are to fake and why are the plus size ones still skinny and the skinny ones twigs? That whole world is annoying. Also I'm not a huge fan of reality shows they are stupid and too planned out it should be real reality but then I guess that wouldn't make for good television. Yet for some reason I have a soft spot for Auatralia's next top model I'm not sure why I think it may be the accents I'm a sucker for an accent. I have this plan that I have no idea how it's going to work but I'm going to move to England and marry a british guy and have babies with accents because there's nothing cuter then a kid with an accent. I still have a lot of things I have to do before I have british babies like have a life and find a reason to actually move to England and have a life but that's my plan as of now although that may change I mean last year I was convinced that I would be living in New York by this time this year and obviously that didn't happen and how did I get on this topic? I forget I could read it back and pretend like I knew where this rant was going the whole time but I won't but yeah I'll write more of this tomorrow unless I think of more to say in a few minutes but in theory I have to go and sleep now.


Okay really glad I typed all of that out yesterday cause today I have return of the sickness which is not fun, I can't stay focused on anything for too long and I'm falling asleep on my keyboard. This makes me sad as I wanted to do and epic awesome blog to finish out Beda but I guess this one will have to do. I think I will keep posting on the ning for a bit becase people actually acknowledge my existence there which is nice. I'm going to try for BMEDM which stands for Blong Most Every Day May. I also wanted to thank my Beda Buddies for reading and commenting. You guys are really cool and I hope you keep posting because I plan to keep reading. Anyway I have to pass out now before I do a real faceplant on my computer and wake up with little squares all over my face which I'm sure would make people laugh but would probably be very uncomfortable. So I'll be back tomorrow.

Later

Half a blog, full thing later.

I wanted to get this up while I was thinking about it. The rest of the post that goes with it will be up tomorrow once I actually you know, write it.

Spoilers

I don't know what to talk about today. How many times have I said that? A lot I'm sure. I think I spent too much time on yesterday's post so I didn't think of anything to write about for the next few days. I'm watching scrubs while I'm writing this. JD just had my new favorite line "My mom had a uterus, I lived in it." This show is getting a lot darker yet somehow it's still funny. I don't know how they do that. I'm only at season six so I don't really know what's going to happen but right now it's pretty dark.
I prefer knowing what's going to happen in things, spoilers are awesome. No one else I know likes spoilers. I get how people don't want to know how things end but I don't really know why. I have been told that people like to try and figure out what is going to happen for themselves. I prefer trying to figure out how things are going to happen. I don't really know houw else to explain that.
I also am getting annoyed by how many times I've said I. Also am crazy distraced today, like (holy crap Turk with hair) it took me about an hour to get this far. So anyway gonna go.Later

I was going to try and do my favorite ten songs today, well yesterday really but I felt like crap so obviosly I didn't do it then, but that turned into favorite 25 and then into favorite 30 songs. I'm sorry I know it may be boring but I really can't cut it down anymore it, it took me long enough to get this far and already I'm wishing I would have left things on. This list is really just today's list if I were to finish it tomorrow I would have come up with a different final list, not that all of it would be different there are several that would be on there no matter what but a fair number of them would be different, I think that's probably the same for most people. Is anyone's list the same two days in a row? Actually come to think of it the only thing that really stays the same everyday is my favorite band and my favorite song, every other favorite thing changes all the time.
Some of these songs have different versions and really it's the song I like more than who is singing it so I picked one of the versions and that one's on the list just know that I really like all of the versions, I count six with multiple versions wait no seven.
The songs are in no real order except the order that my iTunes put them in it would be to hard to try and put them any realy order.
1. Half Jack - The Dresden Dolls
2. The Origin Of Love - John Cameron Mitchell
3. Midnight Radio - John Cameron Mitchell
4. Redford - Sufjan Stevens
5. Sing - The Dresden Dolls
6. Back of a Truck - Regina Spektor
7. Viva La Vida - Coldplay
8. Come Undone - Robbie Williams
9. Working Class Hero - Green Day
10. Girl Anachronism - The Dresden Dolls
11. Wicked Little Town (Tommy Gnosis Version) - Stephen Trask
12. Love Will Come Through - Travis
13. Straight Lines - Silverchair
14. Mandy Goes To Med School - The Dresden Dolls
15. Gravity - The Dresden Dolls
16. God - John Lennon
17. Pins In My Needles - Silverchair
18. Sing - Travis
19. The Call - Regina Spektor
20. Miss You Love - Silverchair
21. Us - Regina Spektor
22. Runs In The Family - Amanda Palmer
23. Tomorrow - Silverchair
24. Paint Pastel Princess - Silverchair
25. Don't Do Sadness/Blue Wind - John Gallagher Jr. & Lauren Pritchard
26. Gypsy Part of Town - Gogol Bordello
27. Ampersand - Amanda Palmer
28. Turn - Travis
29. Life In Technicolor II - Coldplay
30. Sex Changes - The Dresden Dolls

Henry Poole

Last night I watched the movie Henry Poole is here. It was good, much better tehn I thougt it would be. It's about a guy who buys a house to live out his last few days in. He found out he has some weird rare disease and wants to move back to his childhood home but that house isn't for sale so he buys a house a few doors down. Just before he moves in the realtor has a new stucco job done on the house and a bit of it is discolored. Henry's neighbor looks at it and sees the face of Jesus. So it turns into this weird church thing although Henry fights it the whole way going so far as to take an axe to the side of the house by the end. I'm trying to work on not giving away all of a move because I'm really bad about that. I forget that not everyone likes having the ends of movies ruined so I won't say much more except that Henry's neighbor thinks that the wall grants miracles and it kind of does for a few people.
Anyway I don't have anything else to say. I have to go pass out now even though it's crazy early.

Yesterday on Maureen Johnson's blog she talked about her Suite Scarlett playlist and that she had an iMix list with more music on it and becuase I love music I checked it out. Well I tried, I got massively sidetracked. On the iTunes music store page just below the iMix button is the celebrity playlist button. I realized that I haven't looked at that thing in forever. The celebrity playlists are mildly fascinating. Most of them I don't think are really what people are listening to, like I don't believe that almost everyone from our generation is listening to either stuff from the 70's and 80's or indie music from the early 90's. Yeah I'll believe a one or two songs but a whole playlist? I doubt it. Sure there are some things from all of those sections that I enjoy (actually I can't think of anything from the 70's, I'll have to look into that...or do I not really care that much? Not I should look into it.) but most all of my favorite stuff is from the late 90's and later becuase that's when I learned about music (I lived under a rock until about 1996 I think. When did Hanson get big? I think it was when I was in the fifth grade.) it's also interesting to find out who I have music taste in common with shockingly the two most similar people are Rainn Wilson (Dwight from The Office) and Bob Saget. My new favorite person on there is Nicole Kidman who I agree with on about half of her songs but she wins because first on her list is a Silverchair song and if you know me at all you will know that I LOVE silverchair so anyone else who likes them is instantly awesome. I do have to say that in her blurbs for why she choose the songs she did Nicole Kidman's reasons where lame. I mean "Would listen to in car" isn't really a reason to like something. I would listen to just about anything in a car that's probably when I'm most accepting of music what with having to listen to stuff other people like and dealing with the radio you end up listening to all sorts of stuff in cars. If you can't listen to something in a car when can you listen to it? Seeing what people have to say about these songs is also interesting, while most of them follow Nicole Kidman's example some people actually put thought into it and that's something I like to see. Paul McCartney is in the "put thought into it" group and wrote whole paragraphs on a couple songs. Trouble was Paul McCartney is a giant name dropper, that makes no sense to me Paul McCartney is the name that should be dropped but he keeps talking about how he met this person or that person and he worked with this other person oh and when he was in the Beatles with John Lennon as if no one knew about that, it's very strange.
I was going to do my own playlist but I found out that's a lot easier to talk about then do so maybe I'll have one tomorrow. What are you guys listening to?

Today I was nearly scalded to death by coffee. Well maybe not to death but still burned more than normal. I had it in a cup with a lid that was on securely. I was walking but I was doing it carefully and still the coffee would leap out of the tiny hole and all over my hand. I don't know what I did to upset the universe to make them make want to get coffee all over the place, maybe it's their way of telling me I'm drinking too much of it. Hmmm I will have to look into this.
Also I just wanted to add my Urban Dictionary meme to this becasue I don't want to have to go back and edit yesterday's post so here you go: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Od9DWKa-wro (For some reason I can't just embed the video here, I don't know why.

Not much went on today so maybe in typing I'll find something to talk about so forgive me if I jump around a lot. I was at GameStop the other day with my dad because he was getting my brother a game for his birthday and I found Kingdom Hearts chain of Memories for ten dollars so I bought it because I'm a fan of Kindom Hearts on Playstation so why not also be a fan of it on Gameboy. I don't know if I like it yet. I mean it's different but it seems a lot like the original Kingdom hearts only with a few twists like Sora is in Castle Oblivion and most of his memories are gone and the big bad guy in this one is Organization 13 (I'm not sure if that's what they're calling them in this one yet because I'm not that far it's just what they are called in Kingdom Hearts 2) instead of the heartless. Also the whole thing so far is just playing over a shortened version of the events of the original game it's not terrible but I'm glad I didn't pay full price for it. I think that maybe Kingdom Hearts for me should be played on the Playstation.
I'm thinking about doing Johnny Durham's Urban Dictionary Meme because while I feel silly doing any meme because it feels a little too much like jumping on the bandwagon I still feel compelled to do them so when I film that maybe I'll post it at the bottom. I was going to do it this morning but I thought my brother was home so I didn't do it because I don't like talking to a camera when people are home, I'll do it if they're all asleep but not if I think they're going to be awake any minute, but yeah I didn't do it then my Dad got home and told me that Nick was out to lunch so I was home alone and didn't know it which was a little irritating. My dad thought that Nicky was out to lunch with Brandon (his best friend who lives across the street) so I asked Nick when he got home if he and Brandon just went out to lunch (which would be weird because that's not really their style) or if it was a birthday thing (It's Nick's birthday) and he told me that he went out with a girl (he won't tell me her name, well he told me a name but I think he's lying because he's always lying about this girl) which I think is adorable because he's my baby brother (not really baby he just turned 19) and has always seemed afraid of girls except one girl last year who was in band with him and is friends with my sister but I guess she liked the other kid in their section. Wow huge digression from my original point. Theoretically I'm going to do Johnny's meme later. Why is it called a meme anyway? That's something I've always wondered about, and why is it pronounced the way it is? With it being spelled meme I would think it would be pronounced me me. Why not just spell it meem? Sorry things like that always bug me.
Anyway
Later

The Rain

I finally signed up for a photograhy class. This makes me a little overly excited. I've been looking at doing it for about three years I think it is now and I finally did it. One of my friends agreed to take the class with me but he backed out when he realized it was a class not just going and taking pictures. I have no idea how he got that idea. I think the question "Does anyone want to take a photography class with me?" is pretty straight forward...unless that's just me. I don't see why I would make a plan to go out and take pictures, that's more of a just do it thing. Sorry I'm kind of annoyed at him. Anyway I'm taking this class by myself which I'm kind of scared about because last time I did something without one of my friends with me I ended up being the weird girl with the book that no one talked to unless they wanted to make up something I did wrong, so I'm hoping for something better this time. I figure I have to get out a do something though or I will go nuts so yay for steps forward.
The deal with being the weird girl was this. Last summer I worked on a movie that was being directed by the guy who runs the film school I went to. Josh the 1st A.D. called me about two days before the start date and said that he wanted me to run the wardrobe department which was fine by me so I agreed although after talking to him for a couple minutes it became obvious that the real reason he wanted me to work wardrobe was because I was a girl. The next day Josh called me up several times asking me to bring things to set like and iron and ironing board stuff of that nature although the day before he told me that they had everything all set up. I showed up on the first day and Tom the line producer showed me where the wardrobe room was (we were shooting in this mansion in Detroit the wardrobe room was on the second floor on one side of the house hair and makeup were on the first floor on the other side) he told me that my main job was to just make sure that the clothes were clean and neat and that obviously people were wearing the right thing then he left. That day I think call time for crew was 9 am cast wasn't supposed to get there until 11 that left me with two hours with nothing to do which was kind of annoying but I know that there is tons of down time on sets usually so it didn't really bother me. At one point Josh came up and told me to take the tags off of Sasha's (the main actress) outfit, which I could have easily done except I had no idea what we were shooting that day let alone what Sasha was wearing for it. So I just took the tags off of everything and not very carefully becuase really why would I. After being there for about an hour and a half the script supervisor came up because the wardrobe room really was the only room that we were allowed in that had someplace to sit down (one tiny couch with the cushions missing) I asked her what we were shooting that day because of all people to know the script supervisor should be the one, se had no idea, she said I should ask Juile (the director's wife). I searched that house and couldn't find Julie anywhere or really anyone who could tell me anything. I finally found Tom who told me that Julie wasn't there yet which was nerve racking since it was already 11:30, upside Sasha had some crazy makeup to get into, I went back to the wardorbe room and Julie was there wondering where I had been so I finally found out who was supposed to wear what when, she also mentioned that when I took the tags off the clothes (she hadn't noticed that I had already done that) I should be careful and make sure to save them because they were planning on returning all of the clothes after the shoot. (I don't know if they actually did that or not I don't see how they could because this movie was a horror movie called The Rain and those clothes got drenched, caked in mud and coated in fake blood) So I had to go a find all of the tags I had already gotten rid of, annoying but I guess I should have thought of that as something that could happen. By about 12:30 Sasha was ready and they were ready to shoot that was when Tom came up and told me that they were doing a shower scene and Sahsa's clothes might get wet and I the dryer was broken so I had to find a way to dry the clothes really fast. (I never actually had to dry the clothes that day but we finally figured out that if I had to I would blow dry them using Cat's (make up) hair dryer she had one the girl doing hair didn't) They started shooting in the basement and imediately Sasha got fake blood on the sweater she was wearing and Doug (director) went nuts leaving me to sprint up the two flights of stairs to get the extra sweater and back down to switch it out then back up to help Cat get the blood out ( I liked Cat she was the only one there who didn't talk to me like I was a six year old. She was also the only one that Richard Lynch trusted which made getting him into wardrobe interesting. Eventually I just left his clothes in his trailer and let him figure it out.) That was the high point of the day. The rest of the shower scene went fine although there were a lot of people who didn't need to be there hanging out. So Josh kicked everyone out, that made my job hard because I was supposed to be there to make sure nothing went wrong with the clothes but I had to go back upstairs. Sasha only had the one outfit that day and after the shower scene she did a bit where she walked into her dorm and had a conversation. There was really nothing else for me to do that day and yet I had to sit there for another five hours. I got a lot of reading done that day. At four thirty Tom sent everyone who wasn't doing anything home but not me. I was there alone (because apparently I was in the way on set although they let a bunch of pa's stay) in the wardrobe room. At five I asked Tom if I could leave he had to think about it for awhile, he admitted that I wasn't doing anything there and that there was nothing else for me to do then but he still didn't let me leave until five thirty.
The next few days I had more to do what with other actors coming on.(The creepiest being Tiren Jhames who when he was in make up looked like Voldemort and when he was in costume looked like on of the gentlemen from Buffy) Sometimes there would be wardrobe decisions that I wasn't allowed to make so when I wasn't sure they would look at me like I was an idiot and when I would just make something up Julie would be there telling me that I wasn't supposed to do that. I still read when I had nothing else to do. Julie told me after a couple days that I wasn't allowed to read I had to go out and get to know the people on set so that if they needed something they would feel comfortable asking me, I still haven't figured out what anyone else on set would need with the wardrobe but I went out and socialized then Julie yelled at me for not being in the wardrobe room when she needed me.
After we were done at the house in Detroit we moved back to the set. I finally found out why I needed to get to know the crew, one of the guys in the art department was wearing long sleeves and needed them shorter so he had me cut them off. I guess that's what Julie was talking about that or she meant that I should get to know people so that they could come and steal all of my towels and use them to soak up water from the floor. I needed them for the kid they kept sitting in a bathtub fully clothed for several hours, this time I was allowed on set because I needed to be nearby to make sure that Will(The kid in the tub) didn't turn into a human prune and I had to keep running back and fourth to dry of Sasha's sweaters. Everytime I would find a corner to hide out in so that I would be nearby but would also be out of frame Julie would show up and sit by me and invariably take my spot leaving me totally in the shot and I would have to move again. One again I was apparently doing something wrong and was sent back to the wardrobe room. Where once again the cycle started. I wasn't socailzing enough I need to be on set I'm in the way.
I know this really makes it sound like all of my problems were Julie related and mostly they were but everyone else there would talk down to me or just ignore me when I talked and they all immediately forgot my name (even though I had been in class with several of them) and called me Ella no matter how many times I corrected them. The only person I really liked on set was Cat she remembered my name and would acknowledge my existence, she even got Josh and Tom to notice when Julie was being too hard on me sometimes.
At least I got some experience on a set and have something I can put on a resume now.

Earth Day

So I didn't know today was Earth Day until this morning and now it seems like Earth Day is EVERYWHERE I look. I don't remember Earth Day being that big a deal in the past. In elementary school they made us go out and clean up the playground or plant flowers and offhandly mention that it was Earth day but really I think they just wanted us to do the work for the janitor. Come to think of it I think that janitor may have been really lazy because if you got detention then you would have to go around and clean all of the classrooms. Hmmmm. Anyway back to my point is it just me or is Earth Day a bigger deal this year then it has been in recent years? I don't really have anything else to say today so I'll probably have a longer post tomorrow.
P.S. Is Earth Day supposed to be capitalized? I think it is and everywhere I see it written out it is but I just wanted to check.

I suppose I should do this before I get to caught up checking everyone's blogs otherwise it will be 2 am by the time this gets up.
Today I found the best mocha coffee ever, I know this sounds trivial but seriously that was the best cup of coffee ever in the history of the universe. Enter the story of how I got to the coffee. Three years ago I was living in Ypsilanti going to school and living in an apartment with my best friend Jessi, half way through the year our friend Melody moved in with us. So the three of us were always together helping each other to deal with life and school and the suckfest that school became. When spring break came Melody went to the caribbean to see her uncle who lives in St. Maarten. When she came back two weeks later she announced she was moving down there and took off. We hadn't seen her since and today she came back to visit her family that still lives here (She doesn't live in the Caribbean anymore she got married last year and lives in Vermont now) so she called Jessica and we went to Ann Arbor to get coffee with her which was nice. Actually we went to Crazy Wisdom which is a bookstore with a tea shop upstairs. I hate tea, I wish I liked it I've tried many times to like tea thinking that maybe this time I'll like it but it always just tastes like tea to me. So instead of getting tea I got a Mocha and normally I like Mochas well enough it's not my favorite drink ever but I'll get it sometimes. This was was AWESOME I mean I could drink that all day and never get sick of it. I think people are sick of me talking about that Mocha because seriously that's all I've talked about all day (Well not all day but definitely more then is strictly necessary) but it was soooooooo good. Are you guys more into coffee or tea or neither or both?
The other thing I did today was I finished reading Larry and the meaning of Life which was really good but I always like books about Larry. This is the third book in the Larry series as I call it. I think it will be a series rather then a trilogy because the end of this one has a "what happens next" vibe to it. The first book was The Gospel According to Larry and the second was Vote for Larry. The main point of this most recent book was after getting a huge minimalism thing started over the internet by writing blogs using the name Larry (and getting all of that messed up again by an internet user calling herself betagold) in the first book and running for president at the age of eighteen (again messed up by betagold) in the second book Josh Swenson is feeling purposeless so in order to give a shove in the right direction his friend Beth sets up this huge plot to mess with Josh's reality setting him up with a "spiritual guru" and laying out a whole chain of events including getting him to donate a kidney to his archenemy betagold (he doesn't really but Beth makes him think he did) all to get him thinking again. The thing about these books is that when you try to explain them the whole premise tends to sound totally ridiculous (I mean an eighteen year old running for president?) but in the book all of these things make total sense.
That's really all that went on today
so
later

Who Killed Amanda Palmer

This morning the Who Killed Amanda Palmer book went on pre sale and since I kinda get obsessive about things I like I was right there waiting to buy it, well as right there as the internet allows. When it went on sale I clicked the pre order now button and my computer took forever to tell me that the page was broken. I spent another half hour reloading the page and clicking getting only so far before I would have to start over. I moved to a different computer thinking that maybe it was just my computer being weird, which it does sometimes, but my dad's computer was worse. I went back to trying on my computer. Finally after about an hour and a half of trying I got the page I needed to load. Then I had to go through the standard pages of order now formalities each page taking forever to load(One page literally took ten minutes). It took two full hours of trying to finally get this book ordered. I sort of wish I didn't get this obsessive about things if it just hadn't been available that would have been okay I would have moved on but all I needed was for a couple pages to load and I couldn't stop trying.
I know it's not the most exciting thing to ever happen but it was the main thing to happen today...unless you count getting my brother something for his birthday.

Indie Ellen

I've been watching a lot of random movies lately, specifically indie movies, and there were a couple with Ellen Page pre Juno. They were really weird but I liked them.
One of them was The Tracey Fragments about this girl Tracey who at the very beginning of the movie is riding a city bus wearing a shower curtain. The rest of the movie shows how Tracey gets a lot of crap at school and then she accidentally hypnotises her little brother making him think he's a dog, he runs off and no one can find him. Everyone assumes he is dead so Tracey feeling super guilty runs away to look for him. The longer she can't find him the more she unravels with crazy things happening to her (not the fun kind of crazy) it ends with Tracey riding the bus having just gotten away from a man with only a shower curtain to protect her. The really interesting thing about this movie was that all of the shots are segmented on the screen so that you see maybe three or four different things happening at the same time or several angles of the same thing. That part of the movie I liked, it was a little confusing at first but it's like most weird visual things, you get used to it after while.
The other one I watched last night was Mouth to Mouth about Sherry who ran away from home and ends up with this group in euprope called Spark who are pretty much just street kids taking care of one another. After being with this group for a bit Sherry's mom shows up to see what's going on and decideds she wants to stay with the group too which obviously freaks Sherry out a bit. The group finds a house to stay at and while they are there their leader Eric decides to make more rules and says that in order to make sure that people are following the rules he's got people in the group to test each other try and get them to break rules and whatnot. Nancy another girl in the group decides that she wants to leave for a bit and tells Sherry this. Sherry not sure is she's being tested or not talks to her mother about it, she doesn't tell anyone else because she doesn't want to get Nancy in trouble. Sherry's mom does tell Eric what Nancy was planning and so he calls a groupl meeting and calls Nancy out on it, Nancy accidentally lets it slip that she was planning on leaving with someone else. Instead of letting the other person get in trouble Sherry steps up and says it was all her idea. As punishment Sherry and Nancy are put in the pit which is an old well, Nancy starts to freak out and has an asthma attack. Sherry tries to get help but Eric makes sure that no one pays any attention to them. One guy who is on Sherry's side (I can't remember his name) sneaks out to the pit and gets Sherry and Nancy out Sherry tries to get everyone to leave with her now that they can see what Eric did to Nancy but only the guy who got her out of the pit and one other lady leave. Sherry's mother even stays. The end is Sherry and the guy walking off down the street.
I liked both movies even though they were a lot darker then I usually like. I am a fan of indie movies the trouble with some of them though is that they have no studio to tell them when they've crossed a line so they can get too dark or weird or just not make sense. That is also the upside to indies the no studio thing means the director can make the movie they want to make without having to worry about the studio trying to make it too commercial. I think that both of these movies walk right in the line which works out well for them.

Yesterday and a bit of Today

Last night I went out to Ferndale with Jessi to go and see Laurie and Jennifer. It was a good time. We didn't really do much except go out to a coney resturant and sit there from about midnight until I think it was almost four. I haven't really seen Laurie and Jennifer in a while and Jess hasn't seen them in forever so it was cool to catch up with them. After we left there this afternoon Jessi and I went out to Romulus to get her boyfriend Kris, he's a cool guy, we all went and got luch and then hung out a bit. Jess decided Kris needed a haircut so we went over and did that (Jessi doesn't make Kris' decisions he had free will on this one) I got my haircut too because it's been almost two years and my hair was bugging the crap out of me. Then I came home and watched some of The Office because I am addicted to that show and still laugh even though I've watched the episodes like a hundred times.
I'm trying to figure out what I want to do now, probably go read. I'm reading Mirrormask by Neil Gaiman, I thought the movie was awesome and so far the book is really good too.
Anyone have any suggestions for things I should blog about? Just wondering.

Really quick I just want to say hi to my Beda Buddies, you guys are fast with the friending. Anyway I have to be ready to leave about ten minutes ago so real post tomorrow.

iTunes Stuff

It's past midnight now so I'm doing tomorrow's post now because I am going to go and pretend to have a life in the morning. I'm not fully sure what all I want to talk about right now. I think I'll list some iTunes (Hope You're Happy Now - The Sounds) stats* becuase I think it's really interesting knowing what people are listening to.

Top twenty five listened to songs: (The Dark I Know Well - From Spring Awakening)
1. Oasis - Amanda Palmer
2. All You Need is Love - as covered by Blue Skies
3. The Bitch of Living - John Gallagher from Spring Awakening
4. Bitch Went Nuts - Ben Folds (Can't Buy Me Love - The Beatles)
5. Leeds United - Amanda Palmer
6. Runs in the Family - Amanda Palmer
7. It's Too Hot - Hank Green
8. My Junk - from Spring Awakening (Tits on the Radio - Scissor Sisters)
9. Helen Hunt - Hank Green
10. Totally Fucked - Jonathan Groff from Spring Awakening
11. My Freeze Ray - Neil Patrick Harris from Dr. Horrible
12. My Eyes - Neil Patrick Harris from Dr. Horrible
13. Blake Says - Amanda Palmer
14. Guitar Hero - Amanda Palmer (Supermassive Black Hole - Muse)
15. Firefly - as covered by Blue Skies
16. The Show - Lenka
17. Looking for Alaska - Liane Graham
18. Hallelujah - Jeff Buckley
19. Put It On Your Head - John Green (Roses - Silverchair)
20. Supermassive Black Hole - Muse
21. Numb - Ben Lee
22. Foundations - Kate Nash

23. Nothing Better - The Postal Service (Slipping - Neil Patrick Harris from Dr. Horrible)

24. Time is Running Out - Muse
25. Love Will Come Through - Travis

Five Most Recently Added Songs
1. Know Your Enemy - Greenday(You Get What You Give - New Radicals)
2. As Shadows Do - Lauren Pritchard
3. 10 Things - Paul Baribeau
4. Tear Off Your Own Head - Elvis Costello
5. Ain't No Rest For the Wicked - Cage The Elephant

-First Song When Organized by Artist - Take on Me by Ah-Ha (Because I Want You - Placebo)

-Last Song When Organized by Artist - Go Go Go - The 88 (Reckless Abandon - Blink 182)

-Broadway Soundtrack Most Recently Listened to: Spring Awakening

-Last Song From a Movie Soundtrack Listened to: All You Need is Love by Dana Fuchs and Jim Sturgess from Across The Universe (Basket Case - Greenday)

-Song I haven't Listened to in the Longest Time: Living in Amerika - The Sounds and Rammstein Mashup (Submarines Of Stockholm - AC Newman)

-Songs that Are Left When You Type Every Letter Into The Search Bar: The Pitch (Spectacular Spectacular) - Cast of Moulin Rouge and The Death of a Drag Queen - Sponge (Back of a Truck - Regina Spektor)


I can't really think of anymore categories right now so I'll stop doing that.
Whenever I listen to music on shuffle I have this thing where I will skip a bunch of songs trying to find a song I want to listen to instead of just listening to whatever happens to be next because sometimes I just don't feel like listeing certain songs. I know Jessica does this too but I also know it bugs a lot of people when I do that. I'm just curious how many other people do that as well? (Think I Wanna Dae - Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin)


*The songs in Parentheses are the songs that are playing as I'm typing. The one exception being Spectacular Spectacular because parentheses are part of the title.

Dance Movie Sequels

Eh, I don't feel like doing this I'm having a bit of a crisis which is annoying. All I can really say about it is that some people should think about what they're doing and not be an idiot.
Anyway moving on because I need to think about something else for a little bit. I watched a pseudo-sequel last night and it reminded me that I really don't like sequels. I mean there are some that I really like such as Clerks II some I just really don't like and wish the filmmakers would have thought a little bit harder before they started filming. For some reason a few weeks ago I was watching a lot of dance movie sequels I'm not entirely sure why but it seemed like a good idea. So the first one I watched that I'm going to complain about was Center Stage 2 yes the first Center Stage wasn't all that awesome but I liked it the best of the originals. In the original we follow Jodie Sawyer who really wants to go to get into the company of the ABA and by the end she realizes that she can do better then what the ABA might offer her so she joins Cooper Nielson's new company and everyone is happy and they have a cheesetastic ending. Center Stage 2 they choose to follow a new girl which I think was a good idea, anyway Kate Parker goes and tries to get inteo the ABA training like Jodie Sawyer did (although she doesn't know who Jodie Sawyer is in fact Jodie has nothing to do with this movie) and gets rejected so it's about her trying to overcome the odds and whatnot. My main issue with this movie is at the beginning Peter Gallagher (I can't be bothered to look up his character name) is introducing the ABA staff to the prospective students and intoduces Cooper Nielson to them and mentions offhandly that he had to come back with them because his company went under. My main concern there is that we spent the whole first movie worrying about Jodie and she goes and joins Cooper's company and now it's gone under. What happened to Jodie? What was the point of the first movie?
The second movie to complain about is Save the Last Dance 2. This one is still about Sara Johnson. Mistake number one the filmmaker made was that they cast someone else as Sara and while I fully understand why Julia Stiles wouldn't want to have anything to do with this movie I don't see why they couldn't at least cast someone with an american accent and actually looks at least a little bit like Julia. Secondly the first movie was sort of about dancing and more about Sara and Derek and them fighting to be together. So in the second movie when Sara shows up at school saying that she has an open relationship with this guy from back home and then ten seconds later is going out with this new black guy, I get a little confused. Why would she have spent all that time and energy fighting to be with Derek and then bail at the first chance she got?
It's things like that that bother me about sequels. At least in Clerks II Kevin Smith doesn't decide to go off in some crazy direction while also not making the same movie over again.
Anyway I'm done ranting for now. I have to start thinking about what to write about tomorrow. Also I may have to do that one early becuase I may not be near my computer then.

Book 8, Stream of Consciousness, Vegetables

I've got my iTunes on shuffle right now and Hank's song Book 8 just came on and since I never got around to making the video I wanted to about that one (maybe I should do that) I think I'll rant about it here. Now I love this song it's great. It's definitely in the top five Hank songs. My one problem with it is this there is the one line "I really do think there's an unwritten story and I think it's time to put fingers to keys" that would normally sound totally inoffensive...unless your me and you hane my friends. There have been many times when listening to that song with them when Hank says "put fingers to keys" I get poked because Keys happens to be my last name. I don't like this and it is something I have wanted to publicly complain about.
In other things I'm not entirely sure what else to talk about without going off onto several different directions that would not only be boring but also confusing. That won't necessarily stop me it's just fair warning. I do this way to stream of consciousness style. Jessica and I used to leave each other stream of consciousness voice mail messages because she saw of one of the Lord of the Rings bonus features that Viggo Mortensen would do that to people. I miss doing that. Maybe next time I leave her a message. I don't leave her messages much any more, I blame texting for this, maybe I could go with stream of consciousness texting although that would get expensive after awhile. Maybe I'll do it to Casey because she never picks up the phone when I call and while that would annoy the crap out of her she's usually mad at me anyway so it doesn't really matter it just gives her a mildly legitimate reason to be pissed.
How come people think that vegetarians don't like variety? I mean it's always steamed vegetables (onions, peppers, and usually mushrooms) or something with feta cheese. For the most part I like vegetables although I won't touch mushrooms and I also usually like whatever it is with the feta cheese but sometimes you just want something else. Today I went out to lunch and the only thing on the menu that was vegatarian and affordable (aside from grilled cheese which honestly I'd rather just make at home) was a veggie pita which normally I like well enough but they load it with feta cheese and I just wasn't in the mood for it so I got a chicken pita with no chicken because I like everything else they put on it and the waitress got mildly confused like I was the first person to ever ask for that and was trying to get me to have something else instead of the chicken on my sandwich. Something tells me that that is the sort of reaction I'm going to get a lot now and I don't get it why is it that only meat eaters are allowed to have variety? It's weird.
Anyway
later

Beda and a meme

Yes I'm changing my every day april format. I was trying to do Veda but found out I can't be bothered to actually follow through on that, so I'm going to try this and hope for the best. Since at the moment the only person I know of who follows me on here is Jessica I'm not going to recap my day because she was there and knows.
In order to pad this out a little bit I'm going to do a meme, I don't want this to become the meme blog and I don't think that it will but I liked this one because I hadn't actually seen this one before. For the record I stole it from Johnny Durham.

Basically, you choose an artist, and then answer the questions by using the title of a song by that artist. You also have to try not to use the same song title more than once.

Pick Your Artist: Silverchair

Are you male or female: Paint Pastel Princess
Describe yourself: Pop Song for us Rejects
How do you feel about yourself: Too Much of Not Enough
Describe where you currently live: World upon Your Shoulders
If you could go anywhere, where would you go: All Across the World
Your favorite form of transportation: One Way Mule
Your best friend is: My Favourite Thing
Your favorite color is: Black Tangled Heart
What’s the weather like: Acid Rain
Favorite time of day: Across the Night
If your life was a tv show, what would it be called: Waiting All Day
What is life to you: Emotion Sickness
What is the best advice you have to give: Luv Your Life
If you could change your name, what would it be: Ana's Song
Your favorite food is: Roses
Thought for the Day: Undecided
How I would like to die: The Closing
My soul’s present condition: Dearest Helpless
The faults I can bear: Those Thieving Birds
My motto: Findaway


Anyway I think that's all for today hopefully I'll keep this up. Maybe if I keep saying it, it will be true.