What's Up

Still super bored for the summer and it’s officially too hot and I don’t like being hot AT ALL. I can’t wait for winter to be back. Sigh. On the other hand things are looking up for the next few weeks at least. Tonight and probably tomorrow I have a sort of photography job! I say sort of because as far as I know it doesn’t pay. I’m not sure if I mentioned last month that I went and volunteered at a community theater, but I mentioned to them while I was there that I do photography and they were really excited about that so that’s who I’m doing it for. It’s their new works festival and while I suppose that I could see a bunch of new shows from people in the Michigan (and a couple from surrounding states) area I’m going to be focusing on the pictures. (Duh) I suppose that last bit didn’t need to be said but I’ve been sitting in my house not talking to anyone except my mom when she gets home from work and my friends maybe once a week so my thinking and social skills are really out of whack. I think that the point I was trying to make was that I’m doing this photography thing and it doesn’t pay but I’m told that the pictures will be used for promotional purposes which is really awesome because even if I’m not getting paid I’m getting my work out there and maybe someone will see it who does want to pay me.
Also for the first week in July I’m going to be staying at my dad’s house which will probably suck because my brother and that girl he dates will be there but luckily they’re going away (stupidly) for the fourth but that least I won’t have to see them. I’m going to be helping my friend with watching her mom’s house while her mom is out of town. I don’t really see why Catie can’t do it herself. I know that she doesn’t like having to drive back and forth between her house and her mom’s but it’s not that far and it’s not like she has a job, she does help her husband (gag I can’t stand that guy.) at his store but she can take a week to help her mom, plus Catie’s sister is still around and can help more, but like I think I said whatever. It lets me go out and do something even I do have to be in the same house with that girl my brother dates. Plus last time I helped out they gave me sixty bucks and I don’t know if I’ll get that again but I’m hoping.
I don’t know what else is going on, well I do know and it’s not a whole lot, I should say I don’t know if there’s anything else worth mentioning. Um, my puppy graduates from intermediate obedience class on Monday.
Yesterday I went and bought my ticket for Hanson so now I get to go and see them in August. I love Hanson.
My mom’s dog is going to be in a dog show in July, according to my mom she’s totally going to blow it. Echo is a good dog and she follows directions well but for some reason when she’s off leash in the ring she totally forgets that she’s supposed to be listening to my mom. Hopefully she’ll be better then my mom thinks that she will be.
I’m probably going to see Harry and the Potters in July, they’re going to be in Ypsilanti and I think I may have talked my sister into going. I thought I had her convinced to go down to Akron for roflcoptour but she decided that it would be too far so that sucks but Ypsi is only ten minutes from her apartment so we can probably work it, it just depends on if she wants to stay out late on a work night. (yeah my sister is sort of a super dork but hey I appreciate her work ethic, I mean without it how is she going to take care of me in my old age?)
I think that covers even the stuff that’s not worth mentioning so I’m going to go for now.

This not doing anything for the summer is really getting me down. I didn’t try to get financial aid for summer semester because I thought that I would be busy or something and clearly that idea was wrong. I’m still trying to get a job but that hunt is not going well. (Is anyone really surprised about this?) Sigh one day I’ll be a proper adult. Anyway I’m really excited for fall when school starts back up. The main reason I think I went back to school aside from the fact that I decided that I needed an actual degree rather then just my film school diploma is that I needed a way to get out of my dad’s house and I needed something productive to do. That worked really well I am out of my Dad’s house which is awesome because being over there is super depressing, also when I’m actually attending classes I feel like I’m working towards something I have something that I can tell people I’m doing and I found out that I actually really like learning. I knew that I liked it before but high school kind of beat that out of me and my first attempt at college wasn’t much better. I’m in a better place to understand education in general and I really really like it. A couple days ago I finally found out when I’ll be able to register for next semester so I spent and good part of the day trying to figure out my schedule which given that I can’t actually register for the month the school didn’t exactly have all of the information I needed but I did decide on the classes I wanted and some of the classes had teachers attached so with some searching on rate my professor I ruled out some teachers which was good. My school is supposed to be a community college aka local but they have five campuses spread out over southeast Michigan and some classes you can only get at certain locations which means serious driving. I found out that one of the classes I need for my major is only offered in one section at one location, this is seriously frustrating because I go to the Royal Oak campus it is close enough that I can walk (not happily because it is a really long walk but I can do it) and I can stay at my mom’s, this class is at the Orchard Ridge campus which is in Farmington which is at the absolute very least 45 min. to an hour drive and I don’t have a car still and I can’t ask my mom do make that drive which mean’s I’m going to have to stay at my dad’s for a night a week and get him to take me because it’s still far but it’s closer from there. So that’s super annoying but I’m hoping that something will pop up for that before I actually register that way I don’t have to spend all my time going all over the planet for class.
So um yeah I meant this to be more cheerful and have more then just a rant but I’m sort of bored with writing now and my computer is really starting to burn the crap out of my leg so I’m going to go and hopefully I have something better for you next time.
Oh here’s something possibly cheerful, I may have talked my sister in going down to Ohio for the wrock show in Akron which I’m really hoping will happen because I really want to go even if it is really far it’s the second closest show and I already missed the closest one but it’s okay because if I had gone to the one is Harper Woods then I wouldn’t be able to see All Caps who I’m really excited for. So yay happy.

p.s. I’m really not as depressed as the blogging would lead a person to believe. I am this bored but not so depressed.

p.p.s. I just wanted to add in a couple pictures so the first is at my sister’s graduation and the second two I took in my backyard a couple weeks ago.

Pen Contest

Really quick, I’m entered in a contest to win a new camera and $5,000. You may have seen something about it if you are on youtube ever recently. I really want to win (obviously otherwise I wouldn’t be entered ) but the trouble is that in order to even be considered for winning first you need to have the top twenty votes. As we know I have a slight problem with invisibility and people tend to ignore my videos (seriously I have one with 0 views) and now Nina from the Moaning Myrtles has entered and has Hank Green on her side thus putting all of Nerdfighteria against me. The video has been up for two days and so far I only have two votes which is not going to help me. As it is I know I won’t win because of the invisibility factor but I still and trying and I would like to at least have a fighting chance. So if you guys could do me a favor and please just thumb up my video I would really really really appreciate it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SKfDRep6gRw

Money and Grades

Ugh, did I mention last time that my cat doesn’t let me sleep in the mornings? I can’t remember. I can’t wait for my mom to get home, I can go back to sleeping in the morning. It’s not like I want to sleep that late all I’m asking is or 7:30, trouble is my mom usually gets up at 4:30 so the animals don’t like waiting that long, it’s frustrating. I’ve been living on coffee.
I’m also really worried about my bills, trying to pay my phone bill this month I found out that my credit card is maxed out even though I pay it every month, I know I should pay off the whole amount every month and I did that for a long time but then I lent money to my dad, he’s always paid me back in the past but this time he kept asking for more and there is no sign of him ever paying me back and I can’t pay off the card. I’ve stopped giving him anything which is a good thing and I’m not buying anything I can’t pay for I pay off everything I buy in the month but I think it’s the interest that has but me over the edge, it’s really frustrating because I could handle my bills if it weren’t for the stupid card. I’m trying to get a job so that I can pay for it but no one will hire me, or even have me in for an interview. I’m thinking maybe I can try to sell something on the internet. I know it’s unrealistic to think that I could make a living doing that but all I need is $2000 which is a lot but I don’t think it’s too much to think I could make. I don’t really have anything I could sell but maybe my photography? I know I only have like four readers on here but is that something maybe people would buy? Do you guys have any suggestions? I really need to figure something out to get me out of this and any help at all would be appreciated.

On a not depressing or begging note I got my grades back for the semester. My Mass Media class is still messing with me because on the official thing it says I got an N which means non-attending I emailed the teacher as he said that was an error and that I was supposed to get an A- which shocks me because I was sure that I wouldn’t get higher then a C but I’ll take it so that was exciting. My stress class which I was sure I would get an A in I only got a B which makes me mad I think it was graded more on the teacher’s opinion rather then my actual grades because a good chunk of that was based on participation and while I participated I don’t think I participated enough for him, it’s annoying but still better then almost everything I’ve ever gotten in a college class. Everything else I got an A in and that means that I got on the Deans List. I’m so happy about this school thing because last time I was in college classes I bombed horribly and I am really glad that this is working out so well.

Beda April 30: Ten Things

I know I didn’t post yesterday but I left the house at 8 am and didn’t spend more then a few minutes back here until about ten pm and then I had last minute homework to do and I just didn’t have the time. I’m going to try and do this quick because I need to go to sleep as soon as I can because tomorrow I have to be up at six so I can get to Ann Arbor because my sister is graduating from U of M and since Obama is speaking we have to get there crazy early to get through security and stuff so I have most of what I was going to say yesterday pre written it is just a list of 25 random things about me. So here that is:

1. I am Vegetarian
2. My favorite band in the universe is Silverchair
3. I am afraid of almost everything
4. My favorite place I have ever been is New York
5. I think in general I am crazy boring
6. I am a film school graduate and am now trying to get a 4 year degree hopefully in photography
7. For some reason I cannot fill out forms in order
8. I've had gray hair since I was 14
9. I hate lima beans
10. My favorite color changes by the second
11. I hate the taste of toothpaste and prefer the orange flavor
12. My name is post credits on the Clerks 2 DVD
13. I'm terrible at math
14. I really miss being in band
15. I have secretly always wanted to be a dancer but I don't have the talent or the body for it
16. I keep all sorts of lists
17. I'm jealous of people who have religion
18. I'm pretty sure I don't see myself clearly
19. I am trying to read 100 books this year, so far I'm at 29
20. I am allergic to nice weather (seriously I get itchy and break out in hives it's terrible.)
21. I miss nanowrimo because it gave me a reason to work on my book
22. When I was six I tackled a boy I liked at recess and kissed him, I wish I still had that confidence.
23. I want to travel more then I have
24. My favorite candy is graham cracker bits coated in chocolate, I only know of one place that sells them
25. I really want a vespa

The short version of what I was going to talk about today is my playlist for the month of April made up of the song titles I used as blog titles so here’s that:

1. Astronaut: A Short History of Nearly Nothing by Amanda Palmer
2. Creep by Radiohead
3. Forgotten by Linkin Park
4. Movies by Alien Ant Farm
5. Nothing Much Happens by Ben Lee
6. Distraction by Angels and Airwaves
7. Coming Clean by Green Day
8. Things I Don’t Understand by Coldplay
9. Maureen by Fountains of Wayne
10. Too Late by No Doubt
11. Introduction by Panic! at the Disco
12. Thinking in Reverse by The Dissociatives
13. Green Day by Green Day
14. Whatever it is by Ben Lee
15. The Adventure by Angels and Airwaves
16. Eight Years Old by Ben Lee
17. Just the Faces Change by Travis
18. Scattered by Green Day
19. Looking For Alaska by Liane Graham
20. Short and Sweet by Julia Nunes
21. An Awful Lot of Running by Chameleon Circuit
22. Gimme Some Truth by John Lennon
23. Ten Things by Paul Baribeau

I hope everything is good with everyone, I really hope that everyone will keep blogging after this because I really like having your blogs to read and I like having internet friends.

Beda April 28: Gimme Some Truth

I am so busy today. I’m not sure I have enough time to actually get this blog done. I had my last film class today, it was a joke. We watched a documentary about the 1939 Worlds Fair. It was super boring and then the teacher told us to make sure we used a certain format when we wrote the paper for it. Yeah this was the last class I don’t think I’m going to be doing anymore homework for it. We also got to do faculty evaluations, I’m really looking forward to all of those because I have strong opinions on my teachers. They asked a bunch of questions about the teacher like “does he have enthusiasm for the subject” “is he knowledgeable” “does he make you want to learn more” I had to give this guy below average on everything aside from enthusiasm, and then they asked a couple of questions that sort of force you to put something positive like one was “What did you like best about this class?” I didn’t like anything about this class so I said “I like that after I wrote my four papers nothing was expected of me.” Which I guess is positive but really doesn’t look good for the teacher. I’m not trying to be mean to this teacher on purpose but I put in a lot of money for this class (well financial aid did) and I want to get what I paid for. If I didn’t already know about film I would not know anything based off of this class. That’s an awkward sentence but you know what I mean right? The point of that is that I needed to tell the truth more then I needed to be nice. During the little lecture section we had today I found out that this guy I’m pretty sure isn’t aware of what decade it really is. He started talking about the Worlds Fair that happened in 1960 and then asked “you guys remember 1960 right?” I thought he was joking at first, my uncle says stuff like that to me all the time but then we went on with “sure you do.” And he was dead serious, he kept on talking like we were all alive and aware in 1960. Based on what I’ve seen in that class there is maybe one person who was born sometime in the 60’s and everyone else is definitely 80’s and 90’s.
Subject change, Glee last night was not my favorite episode ever. I didn’t really like any of the songs and I wasn’t a fan of how Sue got away with trying to kill Mercedes. I did love Kristin Chenoweth, although again I wasn’t a huge fan of any of her songs this week. I really was hoping for a meeting of April and whatsherface the leader of Vocal Adrenaline played by Idina. That may not have made any sense to the plot but I like bringing the Broadway together. I’m also really hoping for Rachel and Jesse to have a Spring Awakening song. One other thing I really worry about is now that Will’s divorced or getting divorced, why is every age appropriate lady throwing herself at him? If he liked Emma so much why isn’t he waiting for her? Why is he making out with Idina and then sort of living with April? Still my favorite show right now but I wasn’t totally thrilled with this episode. Every show has some misses, Glee was bound to have one eventually.
I have to get back to studying now. Later.

Beda April 27: An Awful Lot of Running

I am so excited that this is my last week of school. I officially have only four days left of classes. I am DREADING Friday but otherwise I’m excited.
My computer has been acting up for the last couple days. It’s working now but I’m still afraid of what it will do. This computer has given me trouble ever since I got it. It will spend several days crashing all the time and then it will be fine for like three months and then start crashing all over again. I want a new one but I can’t afford it right now. (Reason number 815 why I need a job.)
I’m not really sure what else I should write about today. I haven’t really done much in the past week, I’ve been sick (although feeling much better now) and then I spent the weekend trying to get my computer working and hanging out the Jessi and her cousin Holly. That sucked a bit. Jessi really wanted to do something with Holly because…well I’m not really sure why, but she decided that we needed to take her out to Ann Arbor, then when we tried to go it was raining that day so she decided to take her to the mall in Ann Arbor, which was lame, I am not really a mall person, especially when I don’t have money and then Holly got all weird and moody which made Jess weird and moody and that was awkward, oh and I should mention that Holly is only 12 so Jess and I were both trying to make Holly feel cool because she was hanging out with the grown ups (god that freaks me out to think of myself like that.) and also maintain authority. It just sucked.
Um what else?
I don’t know.
I’m really busy for the rest of this week. Today I don’t have anything but Glee going on. Tomorrow I’m taking Alaska to see Miles at Echo’s dog class. Thursday we are celebrating my brother’s birthday which as far as I can tell no one is excited about. He’s being a giant douche about everything and made us change when we were going to celebrate twice, my mom is mad enough at him that she’s only getting him clothes, I think she was going to tell him to forget about it entirely but he’s still her kid so she feels like she has to do something. (Yeah the reason he keeps blowing us off is because of his girlfriend.) Anyway Friday I’m going to the dog park with my mom and some of her work friends (who are actually about my age, yeah my mom is the old lady at work) Saturday I have to go out to Ann Arbor for my little sister’s graduation. I’m kinda excited for this one because Barak Obama is supposed to be there and also I’m really proud of Casey, she’s the first one of us to graduate from a four year school also she was part of the engineering school which isn’t exactly easy, it’s kind of literally rocket science. (Oh yeah to add to Nicky’s douchery he’s not coming to Casey’s graduation and if he does go he’s bailing out early to go and celebrate his birthday some more with that girl he dates.) Sunday I’m going downtown to see Spring Awakening and then on Monday I have my final final. So yeah a little busy, plus I still have school and studying.
Okay going to go now, it’s still early but I’m trying to take it easy on my computer and also I want to see if I can sell my school books so I have to go and put them for sale.